Shattered x O.A.R

24th May 2009, Sunday.
Pasir Ris Park, Pit Area 1, Pit 12.
Han's Advanced 21st Birthday Mini Surprise.

My heartfelt gratitude to:

Naz and Rain,for the help and suggestions, for answering my frantic phone calls, and for running around Singapore with me.
Ben & Jerry's on me, you can have whatever you likeee.

Jian Lin, for rallying along a few of Han's closest NS mates, many thanks.

Zhe Heng and Vani, for being present despite the HFMD scare that morning.
I knew it meant something for Han to see his long lost BMT mate.

Austen, for the constant updates on the number of Han's secondary school friends who could make it.
And for keeping it from him, until a few hours before he was supposed to know (HAH!)

All in all, to those who came:
Naz, Rain, Aisha, Zhe Heng & Vani, Austen & girlfriend, Cheryl, Chris & girlfriend, Philemon, Jian Lin, Qamarul, Suphian, Tengku, thank you for being present for Han.

And to you, Han.
I hope you liked what your friends and I pulled off for you.
We've celebrated our 18th, 19th and 20th birthdays together, just the 2 of us every year.
I wanted this year to be different.

Come 31st May 2009, the day you turn 21, I pray and hope that all the best be fallen upon you.
May you continue to touch everyone around you, with your shy, awkward but sincere mannerisms.
May you continue to love and live your life to the fullest.
And finally, may you continue to celebrate and look forward to many, many more birthdays, laughter and meaningful moments.

What I feel for you, I can't really describe in words, but I will continue to show them to you, for as long as we both shall live.

Sugar x Flo Rida Feat. Wynter Gordon

Sunday...

Unfaithful x Rihanna

The sights and sounds from Marianah's & Fahmy's Wedding.
19th April 2009.

Missing everyone... Wanna go bowling...

Credits : Multiple Multiply sites

Speechless x The Veronicas

Its finally over.
Funny, how I feel lost, knowing that I've got all this free time on my hands now.
So, please, bring me out.
Anywhere.
Its like, for the past few weeks, its been eat, sleep, study, repeat (with the occasional impromptu breakdowns, no less).

Although, I'd love to say that I feel like I've accomplished something, like how I felt last semester, I'm still thankful that I made it through the sleepless days and nights.
I just want to get through this semester.
Insyallah.

On a final note, its ridiculous how "Party Like A Rockstar" keeps playing on repeat, on my mind, everytime the exams draw to a halt.

I can't party, really... gotta work my ass off for someone's 21st, which is drawing closer by the second.
Crunch time.

Dear Allah,

Please give me the strength, ability and faith to perform for my upcoming exams.
Without your guidance, I am vulnerable, weak, your humble servant.
Inject some hope and believe in this soul, as, with your guidance, though I am still your humble servant, I am able to shine in the darkest of places, and find love where it is impossible to love.

Insyallah.

And utmost apologies, to those I've temporarily shunned, whilst I brace myself for the upcoming war, between my wits and ability against Commercial Law, Business Statistics, Prices & Markets and Management Accounting & Business.

For the first time in my life, I am terrified beyond doubt.

Blame It x Jamie Foxx


Dear Marianah,

Many heartfelt congratulations on your upcoming wedding, from me to you.
I hope you truly enjoyed the Hen Night the girls and I threw for you =)
We, sure as hell, enjoyed planning and making it possible (kudos, ladies! *hugs*)
And I know we all know, you're gonna be one of the most beautiful blushing brides ever.
It's gonna be special this Sunday, as we, your friends, watch you, our first girl, sit on the dais, finally, as Mrs. Fahmy.

Congratulations, once more and love you!

Lots of love,
Shikin

p.s Ladies, where's my tiara ah!?

The recording of your voice in my phone x You
... cos tomorrow, I have a ridiculously early start, to a really long day.
And you're still stuck wayyy over there.

Stay-ins should be limited to 5 days, MAX.
Never 10.
Period.

Use Somebody x Kings of Leon

For making me feel like I could dance like no one is looking;
Love like I've never had a broken heart;
And live like Heaven's on Earth.

I thank thee.

White Horse x Taylor Swift

March arrived with a burst of activities.
I was up to my neck trying to struggle through the throng of plans, schedules, school and work.
On a brighter note, my organizer never looked so colourful before.

Also, since the beginning of March, I've been stuffing myself with food, glorious food.
The girls and I had Pastamania, accompanied with receiving the most unexpected thing ever, someone's wedding invite. *gasp*

Needless to say, we could hardly contain our excitement.
And also, we were over the moon for our bride-to-be.

We could hardly keep still... as portrayed by;

Exhibit A...

... and Exhibit B.

Aaanddd... we're all in the midst of planning a certain something for her before she steps into the realm of becoming someone's missus.

Garlic bread bingeing and party planning!

Headed to the I.T Fair the day after, a Saturday, with the unpredictable Mr. Rain.
Just went I thought that I'd have a horrendous time, being squished amongst sweaty bodies and bespectacled geeks, I have to say that I honestly enjoyed myself.
We left the moment we got our load and made our way to town for some good ol' retail therapy and Pastamania (again).

Sunday, was chocked full with love with Mr. Sea Soldier.
We had our virgin meal at Sofra Turkish Restaurant, for lunch.
It was no wonder why Lala highly recommended the place... it was goooood.

And speaking of him, he FINALLY POC-ed yesterday =)
Yay! for (no longer PTE) B H Sim.

And a short update on my two favourite little people.

Rifqy: * While trying to shove Trisha's head onto his lap* Sha! Eeep! (Sleep)

Rifqy, with what he calls a "bearbear".

Aaah, I am so in love with him, sloppy kisses, long hair, bangs and all.

Whatever It Takes x Lifehouse

Aah, the shitty quality of that of a camera phone =)
Nonetheless, pictures of Cik Maman (ask Rifqy) and Cik Shikin (unglam, yes?) from Putra Rifqy Luelza's 2nd and Putri Cinta Zatrisha's 1st birthday party, Halton Terraces, Changi.

We have yet to find an answer as to why Trisha looks so worried, almost all the time.
There's a constant furrow to her eyebrows... gotta try and make her smile more...

Video Phone x Beyonce

Tomorrow, my fate will be sealed.
Tomorrow, after 12.15 noon, I'll know if I can get that key, THE key that will open up a new opportunity for me.
Tomorrow, I'd be having panic attacks (but hey, what's new?).

Tonight, I am freaking out... and will continue to freak out till tomorrow.

Gah, I am disturbed.

Tangled Up In You x Staind

Don't ever ask me if I'm sorry or that I'm here with you...
Baby, you can bet I don't regret the guys I never knew.
Everyday's another first, another chance for me to fall in love with you,
And I do.

You know how they always say; "When you've found The One, you'd know"?
Me, I've been blessed enough to realise that I've not only found The One, I've found The Only.

Happy 3rd Year Anniversary, Han.

Thank you for giving me an opportunity to finally break into my little black dress.
Thank you for the unexpectedly hilarious, laugh-from-start-till-end movie.
Thank you for allowing me to send you off for book in.
Thank you for the dimly lit dinner for 2.
But, thank yous aren't even near enough for all that you've done for me.

Wo hen ai ni!

A Woman's Worth x Alicia Keys

And for every thousand reasons I can come up with, to explain why I love you, you give me another thousand more...

Oh God, Sunday is like 3242547566898765433213478907654 days away...
May the days move fasterrrrr.

You Found Me x The Fray

How things change...

2005 - "Clueless & Kental"
Han's Hairstyle No.: 01

5 months later, 2006 - "Just Together"
Han's Hairstyle No.: 02

One Year Later : "1st Year"
Han's Hairstyle No.: 03

31st May '06 : "His 18th"
Han's Hairstyle No.: 04

31st May '08 : "His 20th"
Han's Hairstyle No.: I'm starting to think that the above looks similar to 03 & 04, though slightly thinner.

Fever '08: "The Mother of All Hairstyles"
Hahaha.

Sometime last week: "Back to Square 1"
Nevermind, it'll grow back.

So, how did we celebrate Valentine's Day?

We walked through town rolling our eyes at each other whenever we passed by someone carrying a bouquet of flowers, balloons or a plushie.
Rather, we spent the day enjoying each others' company and watching street performances.
V Day, or rather as we call it, "Happy Overated Consumerist Day", is not our kind of thing, I suppose.
Which I believe is a great thing.
But hey, we have nothing against those celebrating, either.

To each, his or her own =)

I can't wait for this coming weekend!
Chalet!!!

On Fire x Switchfoot

Almost 10 months into working now and personally, I've never thought that I'd stick around for this long.
I thought the moment Rain went to NS, I'd be gone too.
And so far, he's been serving for almost 5 months, and I've been doing fine on my own the entire time (despite the constant vulgar-filled rantings that he has to bear with from me =D ).

I guess the main reason I'm still around comes down to the simple truth that - I love what I do.
Even if its just on a part-time basis.

I love the kids who run amok about the store, who pick things up and put them back in a totally different place, who suddenly comes up to me and holds my hand, who instead of giving kisses to their own bear, gives kisses to me.

I love the challenge that kiasu Singaporean parents bring on.

I love getting to know tourists from all over the world, I mean, who's heard of a state called Bavaria?
Definitely NOT me... but I've had the pleasure of having a conversation from a lovely lady from there, who was on vacation here.

I love the feeling of knowing that I have regular customers, who come back to look for me, when they drop by.
I love the people who I used to work with/am working with.

And as much as I absolutely detest dealing with messy customers, the immense satisfaction that I get from knowing that that fussy customer left more than happy, overpowers it all.
It makes everything alright at the end of the day.

I don't know if I want to stay around after my degree, switch to a full time job there.
People seem to think its easy working in this environment, but oh boy, are they wrong.
The high expectations from the management level not only in Singapore but in the USA and the many other countries that has franchises, makes the job pretty stressful, at times.
The "behind-the-scenes" things that they don't see, that we slave over to complete and present to them, those are the things that makes this job a challenge.

But ultimately, all it takes, is one smile, one hug, one customer to address you by your name to make the tiredness and dread of doing the job melt away in a matter of seconds.

Welcome to 'Make-A-Toy(Tomorrow Come Back & Collect)'!!

Seven Years (Acoustic) x Saosin

A short update before I dive headfirst into a jam packed week ahead.
Not really forward to anything, except for Sunday, of course =D

So, basically, life has been pretty much the same, hanging out with my girls and (somewhat) helping Mr. Sea Soldier welcome the upcoming Lunar New Year (shopped, baked etc...).

*Five minutes later*
I pretty much sliced my thumb open a few minutes ago so I'm gonna cut this, initially wordy, entry extra, extra short.

Our version of Speak No Evil, See No Evil, Hear No Evil

Its admirable how D maintains her pose through the shots, even as J and I burst into peals of laughter or strike up conversations with one another...

We mustmustmust set foot in the lecture theater next week, yes?
No more excuses, at least for the next few weeks *winks*

And lastly, to the fortunate many who'll be collecting those Yusof Ishak filled red packets and basking in the presence of those familiar around you, the boy and I would like to wish you a very, very happy and prosperous Lunar New Year.

And, also...
=)

Tangled Up In You x Staind

I'm going to grow my hair really, really long...
Well, maybe just one palm past my shoulders and I'm hoping that the natural curls...

Will look like hers...

*prays*
I'm signing off here to end this totally pointless (but filled with hope) entry.

I Wanna Hold Your Hand x The Beatles

Girl : *searches frantically through purse* Got your keys? Earphones? Did you leave anything behind with me?

Boy : Yes, my heart...

And that was how you got me tripping and stumbling.

Ain't No Other Man x Christina Aguilera

Finally, the new semester commenced today, at 10 am.
Needless to say, much like my classmates, I wasn't ready to switch back to "student mode"... but I guess, I don't have much of a choice, do I?

I ended the first lecture of semester 2 being scared out of my wits.
The module I'm sitting for, Commercial Law, only has a 30%-40% passing percentage across all 7 R/M/I/T universities.
That's all the campuses, worldwide.

And the Aussie lecturer kept repeating that this is not a "Mickey Mouse subject"... meaning not something you take lightly, I suppose...

Argh, crap.
This is not good.
NOT good.

Save Me x Staind

2008, came and went.
I swear that last year's countdown concert to 2008 is still pretty vivid in my mind.
So, at this point of time, it still feels surreal to me.
2-0-0-9.

2008 has been fruitful, personally.
Spent another year together with family, with friends and with Han.
Graduated with a diploma and am now sitting for a degree.
Watched Han and Rain go through major hairstyle, physical and mental changes and then sat through their POP.
Made new friends through uni and work and saw with my own eyes that most Singaporean customers aren't as bad/kiasu/unreasonable as we're labeled to be.
We're pretty nice people, without having to try too hard.

2008 also brought about many heartaches/heartbreaks.
But I believe and I know, that what doesn't kill me, will make me stronger.
I just know that struggling and fighting through the troubles, problems and mishaps will help mould me into a being who is far stronger and capable than I could ever imagine.
Insyallah =)

So, I spent the last day of the 2008, having an impromptu dinner for 2 at Duke Road's Mad Jack, with Mr. Sea Soldier.

And today, the 1st of January 2009, marks the 34th month of our union...

You're the fire, that warms me when I'm cold.

You're the hand I have to hold as I grow old.
You're the shore when I am lost at sea.
You're the only thing that I like about me.
In this world where nothing else is true.
Here I am, still tangled up in you.

Thank you for spending 2006, 2007 & 2008 with me.
I will always have a weakness for you.

Goodnight Goodnight x Maroon 5

Been quite a busybee as of late.
A short update:

1) Han's posted to a Sea Soldier vocation, and I've no clue what it's about, but words such as "Frontline" and "If terrorists were to come attack Singapore, they'll see your faces first", doesn't ease my heart very much.

2) Am still working 6 days shift, and Singaporeans go craaaaaaaazyyyy in Build-A-Bear Workshop during X'mas.

3) You know how people have weird habits to kick the worries and stress away? Things like reading, or taking a nap? Well, I found out that mine is Intensive Cleaning and Clearing Up : / I guess, the need to feel in control of something leads to the need of cleaning up for me.

4) And lastly, as of now and forevermore, I shall order only Fish&Chips whenever I dine at Fish & Co. Period. No more being adventurous or taking risks.

Enjoy the day off! =)

Circus x Britney Spears

The past week and this week were/are going to be eventful.
Have been and will be spending my off days with my a couple of my most favourite people.

Had a big family dinner + 1(the being who Mum claims is my "handbag"), kudos to Dad's bonus.

Took Rifqy to the playground for the last time, cos he's shifting all the way to Yishun (BOO!).

And of course, (as we now know), went to Han's & Rain's Passing Out Ceremony.
Meeting his folk was way, way, wayyyyyyyyy more nerve wrecking than waiting for my exams results.
But all went well (I hope!), and his dad being really, really warm and nice to me really, really helped.
Phew.

Also, cooked Sutchi fillet fish and chips with butter mashed potatoes for Han.
Like, finally.
That totals up the menu to:
1) Beef noodle soup
2) Butter cookies
3) Double choc chip cookies
4) Cake (Don't remember what type, though)
5) Butter fried rice
6) Vege fried rice
7) Ham & eggs with chocolate butter bun...
8) Maggi goreng (LOL)
9) Stir fried vegetables with rice
10) All my hari raya goodies
and sumpah, aku tak ingat lagi...

And of course, the remaining days left were contributed to b/e/a/r building, which is not as fun as it should be because you're tired and cranky, cos you work six days a week.
However, the thought of the money that's gonna make its way into the account at the end of the month, keeps me going, full steam ahead.

Shopping with Rain tomorrow.
And then, with Han the day after.
Can't wait, seriously.

Oh, the joy that is gift vouchers =)
Its like going into shops and coming out with free stuff (which are literally what vouchers are for, anyways).
Come, gimme, gimme moreee!

Cater To You x Destiny's Child

When the whistle blows
Silence everywhere
And the flag goes up
In the battalion square
Soldiers all around
Never let you down
Cos we are the best
In the SAF

So echo, echo out loud,
Zulu warriors marching in and out (yah!).
So echo, echo out loud,
Zulu warriors never let you down (yah!).

I'm so proud of you
And I could tell your parents were too =)

Right Now (Na Na Na) x Akon

Results were released wayyyyyyyy earlier than expected.

Imagine waking up to an excited friend on the phone, at 11 am, on your only day off from work and hearing,
"SHIKIN! RESULTS RELEASED ALREADY! GO SEE!".

I was a nervous wreck as I logged onto the school's site.
And the results that greeted me, made me breathe a HUUUUGEEEE sigh of relief and needless to say, I started screaming for my mother who was ecstatic upon knowing I made it through, with results that I'm more than satisfied with.

Alhamdulillah.
Phew.
The first of five burdens are released.

Night soon came and I got ready for the Build-A-Bear Workshop's Annual Dinner.
Needless to say, we all partied like rockstars =D
Images up as soon as I get my paws on 'em.

Thanks to those who believed in me, for the non-stop encouragement and for pushing me to do my best.
I'm eternally grateful.

YAY!

Lollipop x Three Six Mafia

Finals results are gonna be released this coming Thursday, at 5pm.
Needless to say, I've been having panic attacks for the past 2 weeks.
Non-stop, sudden and uncalled for panic attacks, to be exact.

I AM SO STRESSED/SCARED/PARANOID/WORRIED... and all that bad stuff.

Han's POP-ing 6 days after that.
By then, I'll know my results... so I'm anticipating whether I'll be bawling like a baby or celebrating like a lunatic alongside him.

I'm in a desperate need of a va-ca-tion.

p.s. Happy 33rd. I love only you.