another sad entry

Let Me Hold You x Bow Wow

If only you could see the tears in the world you left behind

If only you could heal my heart just one more time


Even when I close my eyes

There's an image of your face

And once again I come to realise...

You're a loss I can't replace.

Holy Cow!

Of All The Gin Joints In All The World x Fallout Boy

As I was "cleaning up" my lappie, I found this...and I TOTALLY forgot about it:

My Bollywood Hero

....or the big "Maharaja" as he called himself that day.
Wahaha.

Gosh... We can't do this in poly.

Our crazier days.
I miss them all.

you don't know what the lil things you do can do to me

Behind Blue Eyes x Limp Bizkit

I tried blading today.
Big mistake.
I still haven't mastered the technique of stopping,so,I resorted to crashing into walls.
It hurts but it cracks me up good...not to mention making a fool out of myself in front of my bro.

Monday.

19 December 2005

At approximately 1+ pm, two youths,between the age of 17-18, have been spotted,by approximately 60 people, creating disbelief amongst onlookers at Parco Bugis Junction's fountain.

Caught in the act.As seen by MANY .

Ahaha...It still cracks me up everytime I think bout it.
I still can't believe we REALLY,REALLY did it.

Spent some time in Bugis after that, all the way till evening.
Four Of Us.
Karin, Xuan, Han & Skin.

Around 6+ pm, Xuan was wayyyy too shagged to continue.
He didn't sleep the entire night before...Madness~

Karin & him headed home ...

While Han and me to head fer Citylink and Marina Square to look fer stuff and grab dinner at Marina Square before heading home, at around 8 pm.

And, this boy had to be sooo sweet...Leaving me guilty.
I'll turn up fer soccer...Promise.

That's all fer now, I suppose.
Gathering on the 30th!!
Looking forward to that.

My first thought when I wake up in the morning and my last,before I fall asleep at night.

chain game

Are You Chain Game Enough?

Rules of the game :
1 - Post 5 weird/random stuff about yourself.

2 - List the names of 5 people who you want next to this and leave the comment, "YOU ARE TAGGED," in their blogs and tell them to read your blog for rules and more details.

Random Stuffs About Me :
- I f-in love white roses.
- I have a soft spot fer pretty boys in hoodies.
- I've got exactly 21 photo frames around my room filled with pictures of peeps.
- I've always wanted a four poster bed with black drapes.
- I'm a neat freak.My clothes/bags/accessories and stuff are arranged in a colour coded manner/tops with collars/flip flops or sneaks.

(5) People That I Am Going To Tag :
Nur.Nunu.Siti.Eha.Aisya.

weee.

Chapter Four x Avenged Sevenfold

The whole of last week was jam-packed.
Movie,pool and soccer with peeps, early morning b'day celebration with Is' family, surveying sessions with bro and dad's christmas function at his camp.
Yeah yeah...I know, unbelievable right..ME?SOCCER?...not those serious games where you eat each other's dust and kick ass...just a kickabout...I had FUN.

I expected the Christmas function to be BORING...well, it wasn't that bad.
It was held at SAFWOS or SAF Warrant Officer School.
Berets were replaced with Christmas hats, worn by the Servicemen serving us...Woots...
Name me a woman who doesn't appreciate men in uniform?
They were all super enthu and friendly...

AND OMG.

Some of you probably know of my fear fer balloons.

Gosh,we had to play this game where you tie this bloody BIG balloon onto your ankle and you have to run around the room popping other people's balloons, while guarding your own.

I wanted to DIE down there...and we HAD to participate.

You could feel the military atmosphere there,just by the way they talk...
"Ok ladies and gentlemen, the bbq will commence at approximately twenty hundred hours, location north west of the parade square."
SEE?

Random pics taken throughout.

Sis and me upon arrival at SAFWOS hall.

RSM whatshisname and US. Leaving the place already.

Girls of the family at the BBQ.Food was DAMN good.Log cake,Chicken wings, stingray..THE WORKS.

That's it, I guess.

Did I tell you that Michael Buble makes me flyyyy?Ok, he does.

Something my friend told me to think about : "Sometimes we tend to search too far and wide fer something that we WANT, but most of the time what we NEED is right in front of our noses."

its about time.

One More Sad Song x The All American Rejects

Woken up by the sound of drumming right below my floor.
My new neighbour has this son and he probably has a drum set or something in his room...
C'mon seh...It was only what...10+ am.
So, I was kinda pissed.

Drumming in the morning in HDB flats should be made illegal or somethin.

Everton vs West Ham match at 12 a.m.
Man U vs Wigan A match later at 3.55 a.m.
I rather watch the match Man U's playin...
I think...I will.

The song "I Think" is kinda stuck in my head...
Although I don't understand the language..the one line sang in English is ringing in my head.

I think I love you..Cos I miss you...I'm falling fer you...Now I need you.

That one line.

Saw II rocks.Pool rocks.LJS rocks.50% of shoe prices rocks.Outfitter Girl rocks.Church girl brown dress SUCKS.White floral dress rocks.

Papaya Banana Shake...Ahaha...Aiyooo.

Even though I don't support them,Man U better be on form tonight...
If not, I'm giving up on watching soccer.

ader ar

Bleeding Heart x Acceptance

Just got home a half hour ago...
Went to Bras Basah Complex to survey fer books and electric guitars with my kid bro.
There's a whole lotttttttt of damn nice guitars,drums,flutes...almost every instrument.
Needless to say, he fell in love with this black guitar...Not bad la.
$700+...

The sales people there are damn friendly seh.

This Chinese street looking guy came to assist us...

He's super vulgar,I tell you.So,it was lyk talking to an old friend.

And his hair covered 95.43654% of his face.

Saw 2 or 3 of my old friends there,trying out the guitars and drum sets.
You can just lyk take down one guitar and pluck it...
See, if you have...what the sales guy said, "Chemistry with the chords."
I promised to sponsor half of the cost if he's really serious about picking up guitar.
In the end, we bought a replacement string fer the string he broke on his guitar.
Ouh ya...
I learnt something new today.
Thanks to Mr. Taufik Bin Yusof.

Sex is like Math

You add the bed

Subtract the clothes

Divide the legs

Leave your solution

And pray you don't multiply!

Ahaha... Aiyooo.

so proud of my dad.

Unholy Confessions x Avenged Sevenfold

Things at home are FINALLY back to normal.
And my parents are flirting with each other again.

Gosh.

Anyways, mum and dad are busybusybusy, preparing fer the 1st of January.
At some big shot hotel that cost them both a good few hundred bucks fer the table.
After a god-knew-how-long course, dad's finally getting his promotion.
Up one more scale on the rank ladder.
This tym aroound its different cause mum would be the one donning the rank on his uniform.
Cool seh...So, its like COMS ball all over again.Only of MORE IMPORTANCE.
Formalities and all that nonsense.

Ouh ya, he has to recite this pledge with the new batch of Warrant Officers.
He said it sooo many times that I ACCIDENTALLY memorised it.

Something like this:

We, the newly promoted Warrant Officers,
Do sincerely pledge that,
We will uphold the image of the Warrant Officers' corps,
With pride,honour & intergrity
We will always be sterling in our profession
And accomplish all missions successfully.
We will uphold the SAF core values,
By showing unyielding fighting spirit
And demonstrating unsurpassed leadership to our men.
We will always be loyal to the SAF
and the Republic of Singapore.

Ehem..Ahaha.
First day, I still can tahan.
Three days later, I find myself reciting it to myself while watching tv...
I can't wait fer it all to end..
Mum is like busy going to boutiques to find the "perfect evening outfit" fer the event.
Tsk...they're oh-so-excited.

At least I get one good thing out of this.

Promotion = Raise in salary = Raise in MY ALLOWANCE

Yes ar.

Dad's camp having a Christmas function on the 16th of December...at Safti MI...its a MUST to come...if a family member doesn't turn up,we must provide them with a GENUINE letter of explanation...sheesh.

And cousie...

Just to state my point...

I would NEVER EVER EVER EVER:

Hunnie-Bunnie-Sugar-Bugar-Cookie-Lips-Pumpkin-Pie-Honey-Bunch-Sweetie-Cupcake-Tootsie- Roll-Lolly-Darling-Choco-Baby with my boyfriend..

IF I WAS to have one that is...

Its plain freaky.

And it just sounds wrong.

I WANT!!!

Bleed American x Jimmy Eat World

I won't believe in Santa till HE GETS ME THIS:

Motorola Razor PINK.

Its damn ex seh...and my kid bro wants the new XBOX 360...which I hefta say is super super sleek and cool.

Okok...REAL wishlist (which I have to save fer by MYSELF...hmmph):

1) All Blacks top from Adidas - $59
2) Puma tote from Puma - $39
or
2) Le Coq Sportif tote from Check - $39
3) Gola ballet pumps from Stadium - $69
4) Nike Drift "burn-rubber" ballet pumps from Nike - $159 (+ free Nike tote)
5) Volcom wallet from Flash & Splash - below $50
6) One sling postman back pack from Bugis - $49
7) Famous Stars & Straps "Dancing the Blues in My Red Suede Shoes" Tee from Image - $69
8) Army green button downs from Topshop - $49

I know its a lot...BUT...I want them...Top priority...the Volcom wallet and the All Blacks top...
Had my eye on them for way tooooo long...Those are NEEDS...

The rest are WANTS.

Hehs, I gotta stop doing this...its burning a hole in my allowance.

Ouh ya...
KHAIRUL!!
Hisham asked how come you aren't behind bars yet?

I'm still sick and I just realised that I'm addicted to bananas and strawberries.
I need more.. They're darn yummy can...

To You My Gerl.

My Heart Your Hands x From First To Last

This post is going out to this one super special soul in my life.

`The one that's been there fer me all this time.
`The one that sends me loooong email messages, ranting to each other bout life & problems.
`The one that went to Sentosa with me on a Monday at 10 am in the morning.
`The one that gave me 3 White roses fer my 16th birthday.
`The one that I worked at Seoul Garden & Breeks & Breeks Cafe with.
`The one that ran to my class to comfort and hug me when I needed someone.
`The one that fried eggs with my mother in my kitchen after skool.
`The one that never fails to hug and kiss my mum during Hari Raya visits.
`The one that cries whenever we meet up after months of not meeting up.
`The one that did self piercing.
`The one that is punk crazy.
`The one that gave me a heart on my birthday cause she knows i ADORE hearts.
`The one that calls me Laling Sunshine/Kin.
`The one that looks out fer me lyk an older sis.

`The one who people mistook fer as my sister.
`The one that went on a shopping spree with me with nothing but our Nets card and went back to my place with 8 shopping bags per person.
`The one that hanged out with me and my then bf at Khatib even though she had something on.
`The one I tricked into riding the entire monorail ride at Sentosa fer almost half an hour when we could have gotten there in 5 minutes.
`The one that showered with me at Sentosa's toilet.
`The one that has similar undies with me.
`The one that has an entire folder of her pictures and I in my lappie.
`The one that saw me through bad relationships and problems.
`The one that always brings her digicam along whenever the both of go out and takes hundreds of pics.
`The one that makes honey coated sausages when she knows she's meeting me in the morning.
`The one that calls me crazy cos I never get angry or pissed when people does shit to me.
`The one that shared the line "Mrs _____s,walk with pride.", cause we had bfs of the same name.Almost happened twice. =)
`The one that has an entire shelf totally dedicated to her stuff and pictures in my room.
`The one who wants to have a joint baby shower and wedding with me.
`The one who says I'm the only one who can stand Khairul.
`The one who'll know when there's something real wrong with me.
`The one who I just finished crying on the phone to mere hours ago.
`The one who cries with me when I cry.
`The one who'll still be there fer me even though she has her own problems.
`The one who wants to take a bike licence so we can go on an islandwide shopping trip.
`The one I know I can count on.

Sentosa Madness before breakfast.

15. My 15th B'dae at Seoul Garden.

After work, on the way to shop at Nike's boutique.

We got to ride the entire monorail ride before it officially closed down.

Finally 17. My 17th b'dae at Swensens.

Nur.

My girlie.My bestie.My sister(when i need one).

Thanks ain't enough.

Shud I?

Waiting x Green Day

I still feel sian and sick.

Urgh.

Something really weird and awkward happened at skool todae.

Pam and I was accompanying Iffa to go to Tower South during second breakout...

When I noticed a familiar face...And she seemed to notice I was familiar too..

The next thing I knew...

I was looking at my ex's ex...

In the same school...

Standing in front of me.

We were with the same guy..

Who happened to be with me when he was still with her...

Get it?

Damn weird....

She said, "Shikin right?"

But she didn't look pissed or whatever...Just...lyk paiseh

Which was EXACTLY what I felt at that very moment.

So, I smiled and nodded....

Damn awkward seh.

Anyways

The hols are FINALLY HERE!

Yes ar...1 whole month away from shitty modules and facs.

But I'll miss the peeps...Lyf's gonna be damn dull.

But got things to look forward to.. such as...

Pam's Christmas & New Year Party.

Sending Iwan to serve the Nation...*sobs.

Shopping trips with peeps.

AXN's having gore and horror movie marathons on Friday nights.

Farhana got lobang fer work at Escape Theme Park...

Should I!?

Man the rides and tickets and all that sorta nonsense.

I feel lyk..But then again, what about my kids?

I mean my tutoring students lar...

I dunno ar...

Susanna also has got lobang fer Flash & Splash.

FLASH & SPLASH SEH!

Basic pay of $950 + commission of $250

*counts...

$1.2 k!

Sial ar...I hefta go think first ar..I need to set my priorities straight...

Ouh ya.

An advanced MERRY X'MAS!

We look damn kuku...I know...It happens.

Felt lyk a bunch of tourists on the loose.

Heck...IT WAS NICE.

and Karin & I LOVEEE robotic dogs and elephants!

*something new I learnt today:

Never Regret To Have What Made You Once Smile Even Though You Cry About It Everyday Now.

yays!

Melt With You x Mest

Another day in RP...typical..as usual and... as per normal.

But...the best thing today is that even though we're doing computing my team is supposed to do a skit/drama..yar...VB DRAMA...

Example of our script....

Private Sub example2(...)Handles lblA MouseUp

Shikin sits down

LAME...but better than dealing with VB codes ryte...

I'll choose drama over programming any day.

Sky High is nice!!

And to think that was the last movie on my movies-i'm-dying-to-watch list.

It's worth watching lar...

Life's somewhat getting better.

Got peeps to thank that for...

Things at home getting better too.

And at skool too...yar...finally seys.

After all that shit I've been thru...*phew.

Our Class Mascot

Eric OMG.

1 MORE DAY AND WE'RE OUTTA HERE.

Ouh ya,I learnt a new thing..

Ehem....

Keeping true love silent, is the quickest route to a heavy heart.

Wah seh.Damn Deep.

There you go...Now, go and reflect.

Life's good when you know how to make the best out of the shittiest stuff.

Lyk wat dear Han-ey said.

"THIS IS SHITTY!!"

HAHAHAH

Part Two x No Use For A Name

Bro's off to field camp tomorrow... Fer 3 days...

UTTER PEACE.

Stuffs going down the drain.

Home.

Skool.

And all that shiznitz.

I've got a major headache from sleepless nights.

My world is crumbling.

Major thanks to those who provided me with

:15 packets of Scotts tissue

:Stress-free pool session

:A shoulder to lean my head on

:Huggs to make it all better

:Listening to my craps and understanding me

:Long rantings on the phone

If there weren't any of you peeps, I dunno what I'll do sey...

Major THANKS.

I'm Prolly Menopausing

Screaming Infidelity x Dashboard Confessional

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

Yes people,I do listen to such songs at times...now, don't looked so shocked.

I'm emofied ryte now and gosh,I hate this feeling...
I wanna go out and have fun but everything I do just doesn't feel ryte...
Does that makes sense?
I...dunno la...

I must be menopausing or something...
I'm aging remember...Haish

I dread tomorrow...Gonna lock myself up with my huge cushions in the room and not face the world...

Ouh ya...one of my galfrens said this to me:
"Guys are all the same...when they're chasing and courting you,they'll be there fer you and their egos just disappear...but...when they finally get you,they change back to their normal insensitive JERKFUL SELVES."

Well...I used to think that all guys WERE the same...
Until...I realised they're not...and they can be the most goddamned wonderful beings ever.

So,girlie...I just hafta disagree with you on that one.. =)

Frenzy

Aku X Peterpan

Heyhey peeps... Ok first and foremost,skool ain't so bad afterall ryte?Hehs.

I've got a freakin headache and Cognitive isn't helping making me feel better.
My calves ache lyk hell sey...
On a slimming frenzy with Xuany...
5 kg lighter since 1 1/2 weeks ago.
Extreme exercising
Skipped 800+ +jogged fer 20 minutes along the Expressway+Sit Ups+Ab Slides.

AND NO...

NO BANGLAS OR WHATEVER FOREIGN WORKERS OKAY!?

Best.
Anyways,there's soooo many things I wanna do...
Hmmm...

-I wanna dye my hair dark purple

-I wanna buy a huge trampoline

-I wanna go to Mandai zoo

-I wanna find Wave Hoop

-i wanna say hi and smile to Mr Eyeliner Guy.

and most of all..

- I wanna start over with...

argh...fuck it...i'm nothing anymore.

Right, I'm off to play Star Wars Battlefront now...The Battle of Naboo awaits the presence of their most precious Jedi,SkiN...wahahs.

=)

its over...i guess

If All Else Fails x Matchbook Romance

Call it girly instincts or whatever nonsense.

But somehow, someway, the end happened before I could take a step back and grab hold of what's left.

What's left..you ask?

Not much.And you wouldn't want any of it.

Its okay.Seriously.I'll take it in my stride.I'll walk myself through.

I've been here before,only this time it's muchmuchmuch more...

Thanks fer making me whole again.

Thanks fer creating those damn wonderful moments with me.

I'm sorry if I made this a bad memory.

I didn't mean fer things to turn out this way.

Bangla alerts.

Falling Away x Amber Pacific

I'm officially scared of bangla foreign workers..

Gimme the creeps...they'll stare at you...up to down...and stop at ur lady lumps.

GREAT.

Went hari raya visiting with my sec skool peeps yesterday...

Siti,Maya,Shafiqah,Shafik,Syimah,Hafiz,Shafik(Az's bf),Aznita,Nur,Ein,Yul,Fauzi,Khairul and me.

Kecoh lykkkk helllllll!!!

We went to meet up at Punggol and went up to Hougang,all the way to Choa Chu Kang and back to Sengkang...ONE WHOLE EFFING DAY...

Was sposed to meet up at Khairul's place but no one but me knows where it is except for me... Haha...crap seh...I used to go to his place last time...and like chat with his mum and just hang out with him...like...his family knows me and my family knows him... that sorta thingie la...Bestest guy fren...but not bf material...Almost,but...not meant to be. =)

We were sposed to meet up at 11 a.m...but ended meeting an hour later at his place... typical.

Went to loadsa houses and took loadsa pictures...I'll upload them soon yeah...Check them out at my Shits&Giggles...hehs.

On the way to CCK, the bangla attack began...I wanted to change my seats...cos there was 3 banglas sitting in front of me,STARING at me.I was seated between Siti & Khairul...and desperate times requires desperate measures ryte?So....Khairul acted lyk my bf..hahaha...

The banglas stared at him lyk what sey....Rubbish sia...And when we alighted at Outram Park station,this torrent of banglas came and they were lyk...all staring sey...lyk I killed their brother or something lyk that...Gees.

We're going visiting again this Saturday!?

Raye dah basi la oi...

I reached home near 1+a.m....yet,I didn't sleep the whole night....

Date with Guru 12.45 this Wednesday...gosh...I'm in fer it!!

Getting yourself into deep shit is a wise move....NOT!

Weeeeeee.

Follow Me x Rufio

Entire day dedicated to shopping and towning = BLISS

Went out with Xuany & Bengy...

Ok,the whole point of the entire trip was to get a dark red or maroon slip on hoodie fer darling Bengy...but after 4 shopping centres, countless stories of shops and tons of BLACK hoodie... Nothin caught his eye...Haha...

Brought them to Image 2001 at Far East at first....Got lotsa nice black hoodies but way off budget...I need to stop buying tees from there...One piece cost me $64... Gosh...and I bought one per week fer the last 3 weeks...Haish.

Being themsleves, they tempted me to Chocolates and Shopping... 2 things that are my drugs.

BUT I RESISTED,OF COURSE!

So proud of myself,I only bought a belt... which Bengy chose...so,if its not nice...BLAME HIM!

But,its nice..I LIKE IT ALOT...white,with studs.

And cheap too.

Ouh ya, Xuany wanted to buy this KNNBCCB shirt from Instant Karma...

Super nice...but too big fer him...so, I think, he's gonna go fer the one at Topman.

I'm saving fer that $129 FCUK jacket...I'm in love.

Went Cine to pool after that,and apparently, they said that they've never seen me so serious before...not even in skool...Gosh, I need more practice...I suck at pool... So paisei.

HOI JIAXUAN...WHAT LADY WARRIOR ARMED WITH A CUE!?

Xuany had to go meet up with his bro at 6.15 pm fer some Sarawak noodles at Chinatown,I think.

Bengy and me went to look fer my belt and just walked around somemore at Heeren.

In the end, we bought this beady,wooden bracelet fer Bengy and proceeded to Plaza Singapura at 6.45pm cos Bengy found all the belts at Heeren funny or too girly fer me...which I totally agree.

Bought my belt then went to grab some drinks...it was about 7.30 p.m then...we went to sit at the steps outside and just talked...well, I talked... he listened... You know,bout stuff... And I'm kinda grateful to have someone to talk to... And I'm glad it was him that I talked to...Yeah. =)

Talked all the way till 8.30 p.m before we decided to call it a day...I reached home around 9.15...I think.

Aiyoooo...Khairul wants to catch a midnight movie...TONIGHT!?Gosh, we're going Hari Raya visiting tomorrow...Nonsense la he..I guess it all depends on my mood later... Kinda shagged to the max.

I'm outta here.

Its Not So Bad.

Sunset & Carcrashes x The Spill Canvas

If I were to lose you...

It won't be so bad... Right...?

It's Not So Bad...

You're Only The Best I Ever Had.

omg

Reinventing Your Exit x Underoath

Ok, shit.
I'm freaking freaked out at this moment

Ryte NOW.
THIS POINT OF TIME.

kk...Just now,I forced myself to go and exercise to lose the unnecessary shits in my body.
Took the same route as yesterdae, when I went jogging with my cous ar.

But this tym, I went alone.

K...i warmed up..went up & down the entire 17 storeys twice then went fer my jog...
It was about 7.45 p.m.

The thing is,my block is undergoing painting.
And the painters are this thailand foreign workers who are always with uncombed hair and tanned skin and long sleeve "Phua Chu Kang" button downs.

So, jog,jog,jog..
Around 8.45 lykdat...decided to turn back...
Took the longer route fer maximum exercise ar...then suddenly, I heard footsteps behind me.
Turned, then there was one of those Thai workers...fark..smile that stewpid smile... ignored him and pressed on running faster...
Heard him walking at a faster pace too....
I was freaking out already...

I casually turned my head...and guess what the fark I saw...
His belt loop was FUCKING UNBUCKLED..

sial...i freaked out and practically sprinted to the nearest bus stop where I know there was lotsa people...i turned...he was still there...KNN.
He was pulling out his shirt..i think to cover his unlooped belt or something like that ar.

I didn't know how to walk home without being alone...when suddenly, I saw my brother's friends playing guitar under a nearby block...

That fark was hiding behind a wall somewhere near ar...
Told them what was going on..they got up...about 5 of them....around 16 years old like that ar... But they were way taller and tougher than your average 16 year olds.
Then they walked with me to my doorstep...

ouh ya...they were staring at the ass lyk they wanna bash him up before we went away from that block...

I'M NEVER GOING JOGGING AT NIGHT ALONE ANYMORE!

my virginity was at stake dammit...
shucks...i'm still shaken.
curse you asshole.

Last tym, a bangla flashed me his dick and wanted me to touch it.

Now, a thai worker is unbuckling his belt loop fer me.

WHAT DID I DO!?!

wokies.

Never Learn x Rufio

What A Day.

Woke up at 4.30 a.m. to follow my cous fer what was supposed to be a SHORT distanced jog.

Ended up jogging fer 6km.

Shagged to the max...I dragged myself to skool.

Sat down and all my muscles that I didn't know existed were throbbing...sheesh.

Went to class...blabla...6 man team todae.

The replacement fac was nice...yes ar...farnie lyk hell.

Played tennis outside the class with iffa...

Halfway, the Mary security guard came up..I was trying to maintain my laughter...

Make that stoned face...hahah...crap, know.

She was lyk " This is RP ok, not sports school..!!"

Wahahahah...

She wanna act fierce la...but you can see the smile tugging at the corner of her lips...

Ok random stuff...

- Accompanied my brother to Japan embassy fer Robotech competition

-Went to buy Strike Freedom Gundam fer him fer passing his exams

-Dad & him goin to buy electric guitar on god-knows-when

-Mum starts to nag fer spending too much money

-My sister still being a lil brat

kk...that's a wrap.

ARGHHHH.

Just Like Heaven x Taking Back Sunday

THIS IS DRIVING ME CRAZY.

LET'S SETTLE IT ONCE AND FER ALL...

PLEASE...

i'm skared...i wish i could tell you.

now i know...

i guess...

nah....i dun wanna think of the worse.

in any case, if you wanna look back..

i'll still be ryte here.

watching yer back...

i promised you that remember...?

and i meant it.

Bleahx.

Three Simple Words x Finch

Pon-ed skool again yesterdae...
Lyk wat Bengy asked
"What's gotten into you...?"

Hahs...yar...no mood lar yesterdae.
And when Xuan and Lionel said they pon-ed....
I followed their flowwwwwww.
But I'm in skool todae...so yar...hehs.

Christine,Lionel,Xuan and Me.

A well spent morning.

-X-Box-ed = Kung Fu Chaos...farnie lyk fcuk.
-Went to the temple at Bugis where the 3 of em went to pray fer awhile.
-Went fer lunch at the nearby Hawker Centre
-Bought tix fer The Exorcism of Emily Rose....which was kinda alrite...Lionel and I slept fer awhile though..hehs.
-Went to Bugis Street cos Xuan wanted to get a sling bag
-Went to Ice Monster and ate $8 desert in 10 minutes flat...woots.

Lyk what Xuan said, "Got 80 cents ice cream we don't eat, we go eat $8 ice cream."
Nonsense la...Ahaha.

Went home after that...super sleepy.

Ouhya...
To those retaking Maths O-Level...

You've finally completed it!
All the best yar...
Khairul said it was easy though..hmms...I mean...He was in a good mood when he finished his paper...
The first thing he said was, "Hello, sunshine.."

wtf lar...

And from there,you can conclude he was happy giler
Goin shoe shopping with him later...
I NEED SHOES!

kk....that's a wrap.
I wanna sleep.

Tiffy,your fries smell damn good.yumm.

Shagged but happy yet....

afi x The Hanging Garden

Woke up at 5.30 a.m todae...so I can shampoo my hair...yar....
Woke up feeling moody and it felt lyk doomsday...moody lyk hell...
Woke Xuan up using the wake up call method and the only word I remember him saying is "DIE..."

Went to skool accompanied by Cauterize and Sugarcult songs...
Haihs...Had the blues la siot...

Reached skool at 8.27 a.m...the peeps were already there..some gone...
Sad sad sad.... then decided to pon...and that was the best thing that happened today...
Took the damned UT in the library but we got caught by the invigilator cos we were supposed to be absent..yet somehow,we were taking the UT...fcuk la....Haihs...

Enuff of these sorta shits already.

The Pon Gang - Christine,Gina,Valen,Tyang,Lionel,Xuan,Bengy and me...

Slacked with the big cushions fer awhile at the library...watched Bengy play Football Manager fer awhile and then took a cab to Cine to play pool...

PLAYED FER 5 HOURS STRAIGHT!

okok...i seriously suck at pool...i suck sooo much that I can't suck better anymore..
Luckily, my personal coaches...Lionel & Bengy were so EFFING PATIENT with me...

And seriously ar...when the ball gets into the pocket and the clacking sound of the balls hitting each other is...whoahhh....indescribable highness.
Bengy and I played a couple of games together...cos the rest were playing billiards..proness.
Thankiew fer your guidance and patience, Mr Beng.

Ouh ya...managed to pocket a couple of balls in a row...
TYCO.

I wanna pool some more!Next week.Next week.Next week.

After that went towning fer awhile with Xuan.
Topshop/Topman/Levi's/FCUK/Adidas/Macdonalds'/The shop that sells sports car models fer $3,990...woosh.

Fcuk on the beach.Cool as Fcuk....I know you want it~

After all that...took 132 home with Jiaxuan all the way to Ang Mo Kio only...cos got buggers in the bus...can't stand it...so went down and flagged a cabbie.Wah...the cabbie driver talked to me about Air China,SIA and MAS...then talked about us teen girls who keep on "bukak kaki"... directly translated...."Open Leg" which means...I know, you know lar..

Gimme the goosebumps la...But in the end...dunno what got into him...he asked me to pay half of the fare only..yes ar.

My feet hurts,my finger aches,my head throbs...kinda shity ryte...








but when i look at the starrrrsssss.....

broke & tired & its ALL your fault.

International You Day( Acoustic) x No Use For A Name

I'm seeing double...Too many lil cousies who are Gundam destructors.

I'm way way too young to be an auntie...but heck, I got 9 nephews & nieces and 3 more on the way...my cousies are baby making factories, you see.... The freak who goes visitin with Famous Stars & Straps shirt, Levi's and mesh cap... while everyone else is decked in baju kurung and sampings and songkok.. my "darling" bro... sheesh.

This is what happens if you're still visitin at 3.30 a.m in the morning...and you started at 9 a.m.
The generation gaps....The madness that reigned....1 bus, 5 cars and 3 motorbikes...as we attack our "victims". Collection banyak dokkk...hehs.

Haish...kecoh....which means chaotic...which also means hun luan....

k dah.

Its sooooo freakin different this year...

My Little Boifren...

Killing Me x Cauterize

Raya this is year feels so different sey.

From the start of puasa...all the way till the 1st day of Aidilfitri...

The 1 month of fasting literally flashed past...I dunno bout you peeps.. but it felt soooo freaking fast sey. Before I knew it, it was the last day of puasa...and I fasted fer a WHOLE MONTH! Don't ask me why but my menses didnt come...haha...yes ar...

i'm not pregnant dammit.

Preparations for raya was made weeks before puasa. But, the tv had to break down, the washing machine had to leak, the light bulbs had to blow out, the computer had to crash... combo, I tell you.

My dad had to fork out quite a huge sum of cash to pay fer it all... but what to do... We don't have a choice ryte.

Breaking fast during the last day of puasa felt so weird...cos, we could go back as per normal the very next day. I just stared a lot at my food, thinking of what I have or haven't done during this whole 17 years of my life... I still have so much I have to accomplish... making my parents life easier and not put them through so much shit, ensuring that I secure a good education fer my OWN benefit and when my time in this face of the earth is over, I wanna die knowing that I did what I had to...

When I heard the takbir while breaking fast, I knew I was gonna cry...but I didn't wanna bawl front of my family members... the takbir always had this effect on me...it makes me reflect on ALL the shit I put the ones I care for through and all the things I should have done instead.

The first day of Raya...

The whole family was decked in BLUE!!!

New clothes,new shoes, new handbags...haha...gereks.

Then, it was the tym to get down and seek fer forgiveness from my parents.

Fer the first tym in months, I kissed my dad on both cheeks and he kissed my forehead... and I suddenly realised that,damn, this man is responsible fer all the fortunate things I have today...

And my mum just hugged me and didn't let go...she was already all emo and crying... telling me that she's sorry fer not being able to give me what I want and that now that I'm 17, she gives me the freedom to choose which is wrong and which ryte fer me... telling me that in a few years tym I'm gonna leave her and set up my own family.

Sentimental lyk hell lar...but it happens once a year... so yeah, let it be.

Went to my maternal grandma's place. Everybody was there... and when I stood at the front door, no one recognised me... they stared at me and my grandfather even asked " Ni sape plak ni?"..meaning.."Now, who are you?".

WTH...and I said ar..." Shikin lar, tok!"...and he looked so effing shocked...!! He said, " Ya Allah! Da anak dara cucu aku ni...tak lamer lagi nanti dapat la kad jemputan dari kau eh..."

-__-'''

Ok, after all that madness..wanted to go to my fraternal's grandmother's house... Kissed my grandma on the cheek and she just hugged me and kissed my forehead...seriously ar, the kiss of a grandma feels so.... great...and I dunno why...but I have a feeling I won't see her next year anymore...like...its her last...cos she's old and sick already...haish.

At my fraternal grandma's place, same thing again...

My grandma didn't recognise me la sial...i was standing in front of her and she was staring at me like she dunno who the eff I am..haha..then I said la.. " Nek, ni Shikin la...".. and she said I looked soooo different...

What's soooo different saks!??They saw me when we gathered to break fast as a family!And that was lyk...only 2 weeks ago?!

Woots...so, met up with the rest of my couzies and we went visiting as one biggg group. 7 families with 4 -5 members in each family.

Took public transport and there was so many people decked in baju kurungs...I love the feeling ar...

*can't wait to go jalan raya with my peeps...camwhores at work...and confirm kecoh giler nye.

Slamat Hari Raye yar people... i'm outta here..

Boys Like You Are A Dime A Dozen.

What It Is To Burn x Finch

ouhkie peeps...i needa warn you first. This following entry is

MUSHY SHIT.

So ryte, if you CAN'T take mushiness,you can happily click at the lil' red X at the top right hand corner of your screen and I SWEAR i won't hold it against you.

=)

It kills me. I'll never let go. I wanna speak those words but I guess I'll just bite my tongue. I just dun wanna make things any worse than they already are.

The moments where it's just about you and me and when nothing else matters.
The moments where it felt like there was no one except for us, when in actual fact, we were standing amongst a growing crowd...and fuck; you make my cheeks warm even when you're just looking at me. It's your lazy eyes, I suppose.

If this keyboard could absorb water like pen on paper could, this whole entry would appear blotchy. It's okay.

I'm okay. I've grown numb. I've learnt to stand up to this like a fighter.

I've been through this before, and the pain gets worst with each person. You killed me best so far. If I could, I wanna hit restart and hold it at the parts where I'm alone with you. Parts that bring back memories that still bring a smile to my lips and add a spark of hope to my never ending prayers for you.

I've said it once and I'm gonna say it again.
I've never met another like you.
From the way you arrange your words to the way you put your hands in your pockets to the way you look at me straight in the eye...and that smile.
That cheeky smile of yours that cracks me up every time.

You are...

Taking up the memory space in my brain
Contagious and addictive
Rare and precious
Simple yet fulfilling
Unpredictable and surprising
Quiet yet your actions speak a thousand words
Nuts but you think deep enough for the both of us
The Only One for Me.

I'll lie and wait for as long as I need to and I'll only move when you nudge me off this spot.
I'll go when you've said it to my face that I'm nothing in your eyes, your life.
I'll run and never stop when I see you've given up chasing.
I'll scram when I see that I no longer make you happy.

For now, I'm trying to hold it all together.
What's it gonna be like...
I am fucken seriously scared of losing it all.


I told you I could never make you real happy or treat you good enough.
I gotta take more initiative...I gotta look at this straight in the eye, gotta treat you better.

For one to be happy, sacrifices need to be made.
I'd do it if it means making things better. I mean it.
I'm gonna make it work once more.
It's killing me slowly and I'm slowly fading fast.

Let's start over again.

Hey, my name is Shikin...

...and I think I've fallen for you.

*told ya it was mushy...hehs.

Trick or Treat..

Great Romances of the 20th Century x Taking Back Sunday

Yes ar...Raya is just around the corner...27 daes down, 3 more to go.... WOOTS!

Iffa ni menyebok je ar...dudok sbelah aku sebok2 tengok screen orang.

(translated: iffa is a kepo queen...sit beside me and keep on peering into my screen.)

IFFA...I KNOW U KNOW...and i'm gonna tease you about it....wuahaha.

Wokay, problem statement of the dae:

A canned food manufacturer is introducing a new product. The product is to be canned in a cylindrical can. The specification for the volume of the can is 1400 cm3. The cost of the raw material used to produce the can is $0.50/m2.

Suppose you have been asked to work out the dimensions of this tin can that would use the least amount of raw material.

What would be the dimensions of the tin can? Justify your answer.
Assume the thickness of the raw material to be constant and negligible.

LIKE DO I CARE ABOUT THAT?

How is it gonna benefit my life sey...mrepek saks.

Urgh.

Dalar,i needa go do the mind boggling 29 questions in the worksheet.

ouh ya.

KHAIRUL...YOU'VE BEEN PUNK'D!

dun be so selenge can anot?

erms...selenge = doofus.

yar...musn't be racist and speak in malay..

it hurts,you know... haish.

*grinnnns.

i'm feeling soooo high right now..yesterday too.. =)

YESTERDAY...
Spent the morning cleaning up the house since 8+ a.m all the way till 2 p.m.
Fcuk...we had soooo much dust in the house.

If there's someone out there who buys dust from people for whatever reason,I'm gonna end up being rich.
There was dust everywhere even though my mum vaccums the place EVERYDAY.

nonsense.

Went to Compasspoint to buy jeans and tops for bro for Raya..
We ended up going to Levi's and bought 2 pairs instead of one.
God knows wtf happened but he lost his 501's.

My mum gave him money to buy those button downs himself to wear for Raya.
You know those formal type of shiznitz..
But being the toot that he is, he went to town and bought street tees.
Famous,Hurley, Quiksilver...those kinds.
No need to say ar...My mother went crazy.

That aside.

The whole family went to Harbourfront & Sentosa at around 4+ p.m.
From Sengkang all the wayyyy to Harbourfront. *phew...one lonngggg journey.
ouh ya...there was free entertainment provided too!
There was this Chinese couple,in their teens ar...who can't keep their hands off each other.

There were SL-ing or LC-ing or frenching,whatever you call it...
From Sengkang all the way to Outram Park.
Its friggin tiring even when you're just looking at them.Hehs.

After that we went shopping for those Raya stuff at Harbourfront Centre instead.
Went to this store called Big,which is something like Best Denki but much much much bigger.

Jiaxuan!They sell pool tables there!
8 ft = $7865
9 ft = $9500

=)

Total Spendings:

- Samsung Digicam + SD card -> $499 + $49.90
- New Tv Set -> $3499
- Shoes for Me -> $49.90
- Shoes for Sis -> $39.90
- Stuff at Levi's -> $205
- Floor Cushions -> $89.90
- Wooden flower thingies ->$69.95

i can't remember what else we bought but my dad was kinda stressed out after he looked through the receipts...Ahaha.

i'm so in the mood to go to Night Safari sey.
Rilly...and i wanna change the damn song already!

wokay,i'm outs.

right...my dad is speaking to the karang guni man in chinese...best.


HAPPY HALLOWEENNN!!!!

Finally saks...

*phew.
Finally...Pamy...its DONE!
Thanks woman...staring at the codes is a major turn off.
urgh.
Yar,i'm a blogspot virgin.hehs.
So,from now onwards there's no more skinjustme.msnspaces or whatever my last blog url was.
its here.from this moment.
RIGHT NOW.

Right.

ouh ya....wanna see the new cast for the coming Star Wars Episode 7 : Return of the Darth Wannabes?
Check us out...
Darth in a short skirt and jeans...bleh mati...hehs.

Darths Gone Wrong

Don't ask what the heck we were thinkin.

But seriously ar, it was major fun.

woots~

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