happy birthday, babe!

Like A Star x Corinne Bailey Rae

Someone should really do something about the school's ventilation.
Everyone's falling really sick...
I've bumped into girls wearing that fever patch thingie on their foreheads, moving about campus.
It's really bad.

I think I caught my bug while watching Pirates of the Caribbean : At World's End, on the 24th.
Movie's fantastic, by the way.
I didn't think much about that sick-ish feeling I had... but it worsened the day after that.
It's amazing I made it through school and UT.
When I got home, my temperature was already 39.5 degrees.

I believe that was the first time Han saw me in such a... horrendous state.
He kept mentioning how flushed and red was face and ears were and just continued sponging me. He helped me with Panadols, even though it was useless in the end, cos the fever kept going uBy the time Han left, my temperature rose to 39.9 degrees -_-
I called Dad, who came home and wanted to take me to the hospital's A&E.

But I hate hospitals.
So, we opted for a private clinic instead.

Doctor said my tonsils were swollen pretty bad.
My fever was bad.
My cough was dry.

So, he gave me an array of pills... which are huge and difficult to swallow, considering my tonsils were and still are swollen.
And the worse thing is, I've to "complete the course of medication".
Pfft.

I'm all better now, I think.
Braved the GSS crowd in town with Mum and Dad yesterday.
Nothing cures a sick girl quicker than plain old retail therapy =)

Love makes life easier... it's something you lean on... it doesn't want to be forced... it doesn't need concentration.

Right?

Love Like Winter x AFI

I'm gonna name my daughter, Sophia.
Pronounced Se-fire.
Not So-fia...
You know... like Sapphire.
Get it?!
Do ya?!

Listen to "Sophia" by Nerina Pallot, if you don't.
Pffft.

Babysat a very cranky Rifqy, who wouldn't stop bawling unless I sang Twinkle Twinkle Lil' Star repeatedly , for a few hours today.
The both of us eventually dozed off together sometime around 2 pm... he was still smiling when he fell asleep =)

School as per normal tomorrow, but there won't be any FYP meeting this Wednesday.
I'm a free woman!!!!
Anyone needs a date?

4 a.m. and Forever x Lostprophets

I'm very,very tired.

There's so much crap to do at home, even after a long,long day in campus.
And I'm pretty sure that when Gamelan rehearsals commences, I'll have even lesser time for myself, for Han, for all the things I've to settle when I get home.

Guess I'll just have to wait and see how things turn out then.

Oh!
And I've finally received the mail from the Professional Profiling people (That's what PP stands for, dear Eha).
I PASSED!
So, PP's done, CE's done, FYP's coming along very smoothly (website looks friggin' great. Kudos to Lala *loves*) and all I have to do right now is to up my GPA.
Grades are... I don't know... average.
4 Xs (for those days I skipped)
6 As scattered among Bs.
And no Cs.... and I'm planning to keep it that way... with more As, of course.

Now, to go pick up the phone and greet Han good morning.... even though its only 9.15 am... and that boy doesn't wanna be waken up till it's after noon.
*evil laughter*

You're The Reason I'm Leaving x Franz Ferdinand



Instead of acting impulsively, you take a break and think things through before you make big decisions. You're practical and cautious, so you tend to make smart choices in life.
Why rush?
You know you're more likely to be happy with the outcome if you take the time to figure out what you really want. You'd rather take things slow now than end up with regrets later.



I beg to differ....

I Bet You Look Good on the Dancefloor x Arctic Monkeys

Well obviously, Rifqy's happy...
He's happy... (except for with school)
I'm happy.

('',)

Balaclava x Arctic Monkeys

A gorgeous Saturday... simply because it's raining =)

I did my Weekly Individual Report for FYP.
I cleared my room.
I "cleaned" my laptop of viruses.
I completed the list of presents for Han's birthday *evil smirk*

My parents and baby sister are still outside.
The brother's in his room, drowning himself in his own Indie haven.
Han's at the Arts' House with Ben, catching Jay's gig... well, I'm not complaining, considering I was supposed to be there too... but I can't make it.. sorry, love.

Mum's working tomorrow, even though it's Mother's Day.
Pffft.
So, we're probably having our Mother's Day celebration tonight.
And I've collected the dress I reserved for her from Anglia the previous week.
I've a feeling she'll like it =)

On a side note, the Glitz 2007 at The Republic Cultural Centre was... hmmm.
You've got the girls in their dresses, teetering about in freakishly high heels, the guys in their suits, a random few in their berms...
And then, there's the old hag at the desk where you register and get your seating allocations, who's just a bit old for that navy blue low cut top...
I didn't know boobs could wrinkle that much.
Honestly, the most fun I had last night, was the red carpet pictures with Ivan and the girls after the ceremony.
OSG failed us... yet again.

And Shaq owes me pictures.
She got herself a Certificate of Merit for Dragonboat.
Yup, Shaq's in Dragonboat... with Ernst, of course =)
Sweet, sweet love.

Right then.
I'm gonna abruptly end my entry here.

MARJY... YOU OWE ME PICTURES!

Thnks Fr Th Mmrs x Fall Out Boy

So, the doctor said I'll live...
No more stressing about unnecessary stuff or people.
Hah.

God.

Let's see...
I've cut my hair.
I've got myself those Melissa rubber ballet flats *yay*
And I've got myself a very,very worried Han.

It amuses me much when I see him all paranoid.
He comes up with really weird analogies and theories.
But thing is...
What happened back then... is technically the past.
Love me for who I am... not for what I was or what happened to me.
Don't blame yourself for whatever happened/is happening or would happen.
We understand each other better now.
We're no longer possessive beings.
We've grown up so much.
Don't worry about "Shit Bugger" or "This One"...

All I ever wanted or could ever want is in you.

And yes yes, let's go kidnap Bill Gates, dump him in Calcutta... let him meet Doctor Bombay, buy an island and live off coconuts...then we'll buy you Leeds United F.C, turn their fortunes around and make them the richest club in the world...

Muahahaha.

Plain White T's x A Lonely September

Plain White T's "A Lonely September" has been ringing in my head since I woke up today.
On repeat on the phone.
On repeat on Winamp.
On repeat in my mind...

On repeat, on repeat, on repeat...

Gah.

Well, I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did...
And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did.
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did...
And you didn't mean to love me back, but I know you did.

And I didn't mean to meet you then... we were just kids.
And I didn't mean to give you chills... the way that I kiss
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back but I know you did
Don't say you didn't love me back 'cause you know you did
No, you didn't mean to love me back...
But you did...

*pulls hair out*

Crypts are growing.
Yay.

The Kill x 30 Seconds To Mars

Spiderman 3 was BLEAH.

Venom's appearance was such a brief one.
Peter Parker looks bad with emo hair.
Mary Jane's kinda hot in the opening scene...ONLY.

Peter Parker took off the black suit, which was made of stuff that looked like a black version of Flubber and the Flubber thingie dropped on Eddie Brock, a photographer for the same paper Peter was working for, who already had intentions of killing Peter for revealing his fake photos of Spiderman.
Sooo... Eddie Brock together with Sandman, decided to kill Spiderman.
Norman Osborn persuaded his son to kill Peter too...
And he did that by saying... "First, we attack his heart!!" (read: M.J)

Harry Osborn finally found out from his butler that his dad "was killed by his own hands" because the wounds that he cleaned from Harry's dad was similar to that of the blades of his glider.
Harry Osborn died... fighting a battle against Venom and Sandman who held Mary Jane hostage in a cab, that was hanging from an 80 story building in Venom's black web.

So yeah.
I've spoiled the show for everyone who had plans to catch it this weekend.
Pppfft.

I don't know.
It felt like a wasted 2 1/2 hours to me.

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On a side note...

The boy's been utterly sweet.
Yes, that's him "secretly" buying me balloons.
Haha.
Love is pure ♥

Lovestoned (I Think She Knows) x Justin Timberlake

Like he said,
"14 months on the run,
sentenced to eternity together"

Love you, baby ♥
Happy 14th =)

My Paper Heart x The All American Rejects

I don't know.
I mean... I should be happy, yes?
The ones I love sure are happy.
Everything right now... seems just perfect.
So, why do I feel so hollow?

I remember what Is said to me once,
"In order for the ones you love to be happy, sometimes you gotta sacrifice more than you're willing to."

And I remember disagreeing with him.
It just felt like that was one of the stupidest things that boy ever said to me.
I asked him why should I be the one sacrificing for the sake of seeing others happy... when I'm not.
Why should anyone have to sacrifice anything/anyone for the sake of everyone else?
And he said, I won't understand till it happened to me one day.
I remember how strongly I disagreed with him... and told him that I won't ever be one of those people who'd ever do that.
I'm my own person, no one has the right to influence my decisions whatsoever.

Yet, right now... I'm being a hypocrite to myself.

And at this very moment, I'm pretty sure Han would be messaging/calling me to ask what's going on after he reads this.
Don't be mad at me for feeling like this, love...
I'm not going back on my words.
I did this for us.





there's always some reason
to feel not good enough
and it's hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction
oh, beautiful release
memory seep from my veins
let me be empty
or weightless and maybe
I'll find some peace tonight

Bedshaped x Keane

I, Wan Nurulashikin Binte Syed Hussein, solemly swear to, never,ever, ever skip another module till after 31st May 07 (read: Han's 19th =D )

It's only been the 2nd week of semester and already, this week, I've only went to school once.
Pfffft.

BUT.
The first time I did was because it was inevitable.
No, reallyyyy.

How in the world am I suppose to sit through the digital media design module with only 1/3 of my LCD displaying... while the remaining remains pitch black?
How do you start "designing" when you can't see a damn thing?!

I made my way to that Acer building in Jurong's International Business Park, where they replaced it with a new screen, right then and there.
Phew.

Then... today... errr... I reached school about 45 minutes late... and it was raining really badly... and I really wasn't in the mood to sit through a Healthcare Applications I module.

Soooo, I dragged Han, who was supposed to have Creative Media Enterprise today, along with me.
Heh.

Okay.
That's it.
No more "ponning", skipping, escaping, "it's too beautiful a day to waste in cooped up in class, so WHY ARE WE STILL HERE?!" urges.

I mean it.
And YOU, hold onto that pinkie swear.

Next time I tell you I'm considering skipping modules, kindly drag my sorry ass to class.

Heh.
Loveyouloaaaaaads.

the painnnnn.
it's been going on for hours now.

make it stop.

Better Than Me x Hinder

Right.
I've seriously haven't got the time to update.
First semester of my Final Year's off to a hectic start.

For now, I'm just....
1) Trying to figure which 4 different classes I've to get to for 4 different modules without embarrassing myself by rushing into the wrong class
2) Trying to get my voice back after a spectacularly awesome Freshmen Orientation Program
3) Trying to revive the crypts in late Bubblegum's tank (yes it died, i'm a bad,bad frog parent)
4) Trying to decide if I should accept those 2 tutoring requests...


Gah.
I need sleep.
Yes, now.

I'll leave you with the pretty long Conga line that was formed during that little "clubbing" scene we had at SIT's home base after the pretty impressive party RP threw at the football field.

It's still weird going to bed knowing that there's no Bubblegum hopping around and pigging out at night.

*sigh*

Ruby x Kaiser Chiefs

I'm starting to realise that the way I love changes as I get older...

As a kid, I loved with all my heart... love was pure.
It was my "Kindergarten love"....
You know, the kind of love where you don't have to be anyone else but yourself, when you trust whole heartedly and you didn't ask for/expect anything in return.
That person who came along and willingly shared that box of crayon was my first best friend -if a girl, my first crush - if a boy.
It's was simple, if not really logical...

As a young teen, I trusted people with all my heart AND soul.
It was my "Friends came before family, family came before self love"
I gave my friends and loved ones my all.
It was a “My best friend is never in the wrong” kinda phase.
I pledged my whole hearted loyalty to the ones I held dear.

Once school was out and everyone went their separate ways, keeping the love posed a challenge.
I won't say that some of it wasn't due to my doings.
I was always busy, I came up with excuses at times... I didn't think they'd understand what the real situation was.

I long for the days when we'll get caught by Mrs. Danapal for wearing ankle socks with out Sleeze/ North Star/Umbro skate sneakers, for the times when the class won't wanna pay up the $1 for the very important notes for the 'O' Levels and labeled me "Miss Monitress Loanshark", for days when we'll lie down at the basketball court and stare at the blue, blue skies when Mr. Andrew Yeo took our class for Physical Education and when we headed to eat in a group of 13-16 at the nearby Banquet...

Also, how can I forget our "Minah/Mat" phase when the boys got their pants tapered, the girls went ahead with DIY piercings of our tongues and noses (the pain!) and when everything ended with a "Seh, Siak, Sial, Siol, Tau takpe". *laughs*
Stupid and silly as it was, it's certainly a phase I won't forget.

Its not easy to maintain a friendship.
I've learnt from the years that had passed that it took LOADSA effort and willpower.
You can say it can be likened to a toil of blood sweat and tears with a healthy dose of humour and love.
The result?
Totally worth it.

The ones who are still with you, you treasure like gold.

As for right now, I don't love as freely as I would like to.
I've become wary and judgmental.
I haven't got a label for it yet... don't think I ever will.
I find it near impossible to allow new good friends into my life.
Especially with the ones who get too chummy with me on first meet.
I tend to get suspicious of their intentions.
It became like a “what do they want from me” thing.

But of course there are a handful of new good friends that I've gotten acquainted with in the recent years.

And oh, how can I forget the fact that I met a boy named Han, who initially was a nice, shy guy friend (who've seen me rough it out playing soccer, pretty much impersonating a deranged, sweating gorilla in a state of panic) who somehow managed to make me fall for him when we decided to "pon" school at 8.23 am on a gorgeous Thursday morning over a year ago.... and who now has been sharing and exploring a romantic relationship with me for 14 months, 8 days ♥

It's been totally worth it.

Bang x Yeah Yeah Yeahs

Stomach flu.
Again.

So, here comes the indescribable coldness, accompanied with the unexplained perspiring.
Again.

Oh.
The puking's here to stay too.
Again.

Hopefully, I'll be up and running by the time FOP arrives.

Wait For You x Elliot Yamin

First FYP meeting today with the ladies =)
It went well...
Minus the fact that we kept digressing when Zann and Lala started talking dirty *faints*
I'm pretty positive we'll generate a great end product.

Here's them.
My FYP Wonder Women.

Linda, Lala, Zann

Being around them brought back so many memories of the days when we were still in E35N.
Pretty darn awesome times.
Heck, I can't remember a semester where there were modules that I didn't skip even for a day.

Manymanymany extremely hyper moments....

Like this...


And this...


And DEFINITELY this.


We all love this eccentric woman.

Side note...

I miss you, love ♥

credits: Han ♥

well, you are the one, the one that lies close to me
whispers hello, i miss you quite terribly
i fell in love, in love with you suddenly
now there's no place else i could be but here in your arms...


G'night all =)

Last Night x Diddy Feat Keisha Cole

There's nothing better than a Great Romance to ruin a
Perfectly Good Friendship

happy 13th, sweet sweet love.

credits: Han *huggggggggggggs*