Empty Apartments x Yellowcard

FYP presentation's this Wednesday.
Somewhere in E2 Level 4....


We'll smoke it, ladies,.. Don't doubt it.
Now, stop killing each other.

Take Me Away x Lifehouse

For taking up so many pages of my diary.
For seeing me home 5-7 days a week.
For the times you've held me close when I cried.
For times you swept the hair away from my eyes,kissed my forehead & told me everything's okay.
For the 4.8125 semesters we've spent knowing each other.
For the 17 months together.
And for so many things you've done for me and with me.

I've no idea what else to say to you but, "i love you so,so much, dear"

♥♥♥

Better Late Than Forever x Allister

We did it!
FINAL YEAR PROJECT ONE IS DONE AND OVER WITH!!!!

1 Electronic Cookbook.
15 weeks of programming + diagram drawing + report writing.
15 weekly logs.
55 pages of Project Documentation.
4 overworked brains.
4 flat butts.
4 pairs of black, blackkkk eye bags.

*big big hug and wet kisses to my girls*

One project done, one more to go... and then we're outta here!
Not that I'm really looking forward to leaving my friends behind... but yeah, you get what I mean =)

A gajilion thanks to the ever understanding, hardworking, dedicated and disciplined team mates;
Yap Wen Jun
Siti Suhailah Bte Sulaiman
Mazlinda Bte Osman

Another gajilion thanks to our adviser, Ms. Sharmila...
And of course, to Dr. Loo, for sparing some time with us to look at our application =)

Thanks to Han, for staying back in campus with me till the sky turns dark, just so that you'll see me home.
You have no idea how much I appreciate it.

I'm looking forward to Wednesday, baby love ♥

Lastly, no thanks to the individuals who deemed this FYP as a compulsory module in order for RP students to graduate.
Spoilsports.

Let Me Go x 3 Doors Down

Things to do:

1) Complete Project Report
2) Source for a 512MB Sony Ericsson M2 Memory Card
3) Buy a screen protector for phone
4) Plan a wonderful 17th monthsary for Han
5) Play with Rifqy

Manyar Sewu x Gamelan Music

Gamelan giving a preview of the PM's Visit today, at the TRCC Foyer at 5.40 pm *grins*

On a much, much more important note:

FYP Presentation Details:

Date: 08 August 2007
Time: 10.00 am
Evaluators: Santosa & Ngai Ying Yong
Venue: E2-5G
Waiting Area: E2-5H

CRUNCH TIMEEEEE!!!!!

Landing in London x 3 Doors Down

I'm gonna be like any other random blogger in this universe and randomly blog about what happened or is going to happen in this eventful month we all know as July =)

Firstly...
After many,many, many weeks of programming and hard coding, the FYP team decided that we all needed a major break, in conjunction of completing the programming and starting on the Project Report.

Treated ourselves to a hearty lunch at Swensens and the Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix's sneak preview (a day before it opened island wide) on the 11th of July.

It felt soooo, soooo good to go down to campus on a Wednesday WITHOUT a laptop =)
How was the movie?
It was... okay... ho-hum.
The effects were spectacular... BUT, it doesn't even come close to the awesomeness of Transformers.
Duh.

I rushed back to campus for Gamelan rehearsal, Lala met her boy and Zann and Linda spent some quality naggy-mamas time together, shopping =)

Secondly, there was the Gamelan performance for the Racial Harmony Day celebrations at the Ulu Pandan Community Centre.

RP really represented this time, sending an entire line-up of Malay dancers, Indian dancers and the Indian Cultural Group, the entire Lion/Dragon dance troupe and of course, the Gamelan IG.

Considering that the organisers from the CC were bloody disorganised, we still had a great time playing and hanging out as an IG.

Han came down and watched us perform a couple of songs and off we went to town.
Impromptu neoprints, claypot rice and lotsa quality time together.
Thank you, baby.
You made me a very happy girl today *pokes*

And lastly, the upcoming PM Visit at the end of this month.
Buildings are repainted, screw ups are covered up and every IG is just bloody busy preparing for that day...
We've got rehearsals every other day... Not including the previews that suddenly pop up out of nowhere because "OSG wants it" *rolls eyes*
Urgh.

Aaah...
I need sleep.
The eye bags are horrendous.

Good night, beautiful babies.

Spin x Lifehouse

I'm...
HAPPY
HAPPY
HAPPY
HAPPY
HAPPY
HAPPY
HAPPY
So, so, so happy!!! *flashes cheesy peace sign*

Warh Rao!!
Love you, silly baby.

Transformers Theme x Mutemath

Irsyad with me... during Hari Raya last year.
He's nephew number... 5?
Heh.

**Digresses...

It's weird when you listen to songs on your player and suddenly the lyrics start to strike you really hard...and the song that you thought reminded you of someone else, suddenly reminds you of another being... and you feel this familiar ache that you're so uncomfortable with and you long for it to go away... but it just won't...

And then... there's this unexplainable feeling when your design facilitator decides that he wants to call you..
Ash.
Short for Ash-kin.
When my real name is Ashikin/Shikin...
Or rather Wan Nurulashikin Binte Syed Hussein.
He can't pronounce it well... so he just... slurs it?
Haha.

Right then...
I'm off... it's been a long day, I'm bloody tired and irritable and I need to do my FYP.

Transformers x Mutemath

I swear it was a sign when I heard the Transformers' theme song play on the radio at 6.15 a.m this morning.
I knew I had to go catch it... it was today, or never...
Sooooo, Han and I made our way to The Grand Cathay at freaking 9 a.m. =)

We purchased our tickets and made our way to Ya Kun Kaya Toast for... well, toast.
We got a table next to a Chinese family of four; Mummy, Daddy, Elder Brother, Younger Brother.

While I was happily enjoying my toast, I can't help but overhear the conversation that went on between them...

Daddy: Samuel, what do you want to be when you grow up? A Transformer?
Samuel (Younger Brother): YES! I WANT TO BE A TRANSFORMER!!! *puts on his Optimus Prime paper mask*
Elder Brother: You cannot be a Transformer! They're robots... you boyyyyy.
Samuel: BUT I WANT TO BE A TRANSFORMER!

I can't help but smile at his silliness... a kid who wants to be a Transformer... Haha.

A few minutes later, Mummy decided to ask Samuel the same question, perhaps she thought that he finally understood that he can't possibly grow up and become a Transformer...

Mummy: Samuel, what do you REALLY want to be when you grow up?
Samuel: *stops munching halfway and thinks* I WANT TO BE AN AEROPLANE!!
Mummy: Aiyooo!! You mean pilot! You cannot be an aeroplane!
Samuel: NO! NOT PILOT! AEROPLANEEEEEE!!!

I looked at the kid and grinned at him... and he showed me his Optimus Prime mask.
Pretty cool, actually.

So, the time slot for our show finally arrived and we went up to the theater.
I've never been a very big fan of all things robotics... Gundam... Transformers... well, except for those Bomberman thingies of course, but they're cute... but they're not exactly robots either...

The show was awesome!
Like Samuel, I'm now convinced I want to be a Transformer when I'm older.
I'm dead serious.
Maybe a Scrambler bike, perhaps... with sleek exhaust pipes that can turn into missile launching pipes with a tracker that could detect the enemy so its bulls-eye all the time and green headlights for eyes, a soft butt that is my bike's seat... and the list goes on.

I like the Autobots and all... but maybe, I'll be one of the Decepticons instead and destroy mankind... and maybe Megatron will decide he needs a lady-bot and we can head back to Cybertron for more Decepticons and return back to Earth and rule the world to-ge-daaaaaa!!!


*sigh*
I've got to go get my FYP programming done now.
Back to reality...

I still want to be a Transformer *pouts*

Take Me Away x Lifehouse

this time...what I want is you
there is no one else...
who can take your place
i've seen enough and it's never enough
it keeps leaving me needing you
- Lifehouse


16 months today, love...
And I'm loving you more and more and more with each breath ♥

Spin x Lifehouse

Theme: Attention (Digital Media Design module, RP Chairs)

The fear of NOT getting my module selection done and over with, is now overrrr.

So, it'll be an easy-going 3 day week next semester...
Manufacturing & Logistics II
Hospitality & Retail Systems
Multimedia Authoring & Production

Looking forward to the multimedia module... Green room, filming, filming, Final Cut Pro.
HIA HIA LALA!

Oh!
Gamelan practice yesterday was superbbbbb!
So fun... and the sounds came out beautifuuuuuul.
And the songs are like so... not Javanese, this time around.
But, oh well...only in Gamelan, I suppose.

Rehearsed for our upcoming performance this coming 14th July...
And also for the performance for the Prime Minister visit on the 31st of July.
Republic Polytechnic's Official Opening Ceremony (again. *rolls eyes*) and 5th Anniversary Celebrations.

Final Year Project's a bit of a struggle but I guess we're ahead of several teams.
Kudos to the team *hugs all your freaky short legs*

Digressing to my next topic of that very adorable nephew,Rifqy.
He's babbling up a storm, trust me.


And lastly of course, to another being who's very much adored in my life, you ♥
Every thing's so great, so smooth right now.
I loved the yesterdays, am loving today and will be loving all of the tomorrows with you.

Right then.

One more day of school to brave before the very well deserved weekend =)

Letters of Regret x Amber Pacific

I know I should be mugging away for tomorrow's UT... but at this point of time, I'm eating some junk out of the food ration pack Daddy brought home...

Think it's called "Tomato Noodles with Chicken" but seriously, it should be called,
"The-cook-ran-out-of-ideas-and-threw-a-packet-of-mixed-vegetables-and-artificial-chunks-of -chicken-and-decided-that-he'll-stir-the-mix-really-hard-so-that-the-noodles-look-like-barf-and-
OH-and-he -added-tomato-puree-at-the-last-second Noodles".

It's depressing...

And while I'm on the topic...
I freaked out when I realised that Han will be off to get married to the nation in about less than a year's time...
And my dad, is a man with a photographic memory, so he'll probably remember what Han looks like (He said and I quote, " Chinese but looks like a Malay boy") and then, decide to watch Han like a hawk -_-''

Somehow, he always knows if not all, MOST, of the new recruits' name *panics*

I'm not planning to start my "Who will I turn to when (fill in the blanks)" or "Who am I going to (fill in the blanks)" because as for now, he's still here... and I'm planning to make the best use of OUR time together.

We're going to list down all the things we've said we wanted to do but never got around to doing like... going to that beach resorttttt or my bungeeeeee.

Oh... and I still laugh out loud whenever I recall the time I was down with that monstrous fever and was asleep... and you placed your finger near my nose to ensure that I was breathing -_-''
Silly thing youuuu.

Right, I'm off to study for tomorrow's UT now...


Oh, and lastly...
I love you very, very much, Han ♥

From Yesterday x 30 Seconds To Mars

Happy 20 sen Siti Suhailah Binte Sulaiman!

Enjoy your self-declared holiday today, sweets =)

AND REMEMBER MY BIRTHDAY WISH FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY!
I want them in say...a couple of months? *winks*

Dance Floor Anthem x Good Charlotte

Marquee Troupe II, Gamelan and FYP is killinggggg me.

Performances, rehearsals, exhibitions, meetings, meet-ups after meet-ups and programming after programming...
It gets really, really frustrating after awhile.

ARGHHH.

On a MUCH brighter note, Lala and I have been approached by an upcoming design company!
We're offered positions in it... ones that are not too bad, I suppose.
But nothing is confirmed yet, as the both of us aren't really sure about being tied down to one.
Really looking forward to that, though =)

Right.
I've got to get that Weekly Log done now.

Sleep well, good people.

I was the reason behind his nosebleed this afternoon *guilty*

Sorryyyyyy =(

Sophia x Nerina Pallot

Brother's going off for some Brunei jungle thingie this coming Tuesday, okay, considering that it's technically Monday already, he's going off tomorrow.

I don't know... maybe, he's following Dad's footsteps... you know... being in the army and all.. but then again, I do recall him saying that he won't ever sign on after National Service because being in the army ultimately means (he said and I quote); "You have no life..."

So, before we bid him farewell (for just 9 days, mind you) the Syed Hussein Five went to gorge ourselves silly at Seoul Garden... and the little sister just HAD to stuff herself a tad more than everyone else, then decide that she had to puke it all out *rolls eyes*

It's been awhile since ALL of us had the time to just go out as a family...
Dad with his unpredictable work schedule, Mum working 6 days a week... you get my drift.
It was nice =)

On a side note, I woke up missing you a little bit more today, love...

Thank you for the awesome day out last Friday ♥

Something About You x Five For Fighting

I don't know about you girls (read: Lala, Linda & Zann),but it was terrible waking up this morning.
When I shifted about in bed, I realized my right arm ached... and for some weird, unexplained reason... my butt was aching too...
Like crazy.

Blame it on yesterday, I'd suppose.
So, tell me... more frenzied-running-kick-ass-burn-calories sessions to come, yes?
And right before Gamelan practice too....
Aaah... Lala and I will be developing pretty taut bums after this *winks*

First performance, this coming July 14th =)

That's Lala in the Gamelan's Gallery Studio.

That means... just about a month's plus worth of rehearsals for our pieces...

Crunch time!!!!

Signal Fire x Snow Patrol

"The perfect words never crossed my mind, cos there was nothing in there but You" - Han

i hope you loved the fact that your birthday this year was a quiet affair...
i hope you liked that i spilled all of my creative abilities for the presents, card and notes...
i hope you enjoyed our little dinner for two...
i hope you didn't mind me singing "Happy Birthday, Baby" all day...
i hope you'll still be with me for the next one... and the next one... and the next one...
i hope you loved dancing under the stars with me to our song that night...
i hope we'll continue this thing we have for a very, very long time...

and i know i don't have to hope that you'll love me...
cos i know, you already do. =)

Baby Loveee ♥

Teddy Picker x Arctic Monkeys

And I'm not sure what I'm looking for.
But it's clear to see the purpose of my existence... is laying here in front of me...

And if all else fails you can look up at the sky
Because it's the same one that shines above you and I...
And if all else fails, you can close your eyes
And I'll be right beside you...
I'll be the one by your side...

So close your eyes and sleep to dream.
I'm by your side. No words to speak.
We'll set our course and make it through.
No matter how far I go
No matter how much this hurts
I wanted you to know,
My heart remains with you...

Happy 15th ♥

happy birthday, babe!

Like A Star x Corinne Bailey Rae

Someone should really do something about the school's ventilation.
Everyone's falling really sick...
I've bumped into girls wearing that fever patch thingie on their foreheads, moving about campus.
It's really bad.

I think I caught my bug while watching Pirates of the Caribbean : At World's End, on the 24th.
Movie's fantastic, by the way.
I didn't think much about that sick-ish feeling I had... but it worsened the day after that.
It's amazing I made it through school and UT.
When I got home, my temperature was already 39.5 degrees.

I believe that was the first time Han saw me in such a... horrendous state.
He kept mentioning how flushed and red was face and ears were and just continued sponging me. He helped me with Panadols, even though it was useless in the end, cos the fever kept going uBy the time Han left, my temperature rose to 39.9 degrees -_-
I called Dad, who came home and wanted to take me to the hospital's A&E.

But I hate hospitals.
So, we opted for a private clinic instead.

Doctor said my tonsils were swollen pretty bad.
My fever was bad.
My cough was dry.

So, he gave me an array of pills... which are huge and difficult to swallow, considering my tonsils were and still are swollen.
And the worse thing is, I've to "complete the course of medication".
Pfft.

I'm all better now, I think.
Braved the GSS crowd in town with Mum and Dad yesterday.
Nothing cures a sick girl quicker than plain old retail therapy =)

Love makes life easier... it's something you lean on... it doesn't want to be forced... it doesn't need concentration.

Right?

Love Like Winter x AFI

I'm gonna name my daughter, Sophia.
Pronounced Se-fire.
Not So-fia...
You know... like Sapphire.
Get it?!
Do ya?!

Listen to "Sophia" by Nerina Pallot, if you don't.
Pffft.

Babysat a very cranky Rifqy, who wouldn't stop bawling unless I sang Twinkle Twinkle Lil' Star repeatedly , for a few hours today.
The both of us eventually dozed off together sometime around 2 pm... he was still smiling when he fell asleep =)

School as per normal tomorrow, but there won't be any FYP meeting this Wednesday.
I'm a free woman!!!!
Anyone needs a date?

4 a.m. and Forever x Lostprophets

I'm very,very tired.

There's so much crap to do at home, even after a long,long day in campus.
And I'm pretty sure that when Gamelan rehearsals commences, I'll have even lesser time for myself, for Han, for all the things I've to settle when I get home.

Guess I'll just have to wait and see how things turn out then.

Oh!
And I've finally received the mail from the Professional Profiling people (That's what PP stands for, dear Eha).
I PASSED!
So, PP's done, CE's done, FYP's coming along very smoothly (website looks friggin' great. Kudos to Lala *loves*) and all I have to do right now is to up my GPA.
Grades are... I don't know... average.
4 Xs (for those days I skipped)
6 As scattered among Bs.
And no Cs.... and I'm planning to keep it that way... with more As, of course.

Now, to go pick up the phone and greet Han good morning.... even though its only 9.15 am... and that boy doesn't wanna be waken up till it's after noon.
*evil laughter*

You're The Reason I'm Leaving x Franz Ferdinand



Instead of acting impulsively, you take a break and think things through before you make big decisions. You're practical and cautious, so you tend to make smart choices in life.
Why rush?
You know you're more likely to be happy with the outcome if you take the time to figure out what you really want. You'd rather take things slow now than end up with regrets later.



I beg to differ....

I Bet You Look Good on the Dancefloor x Arctic Monkeys

Well obviously, Rifqy's happy...
He's happy... (except for with school)
I'm happy.

('',)

Balaclava x Arctic Monkeys

A gorgeous Saturday... simply because it's raining =)

I did my Weekly Individual Report for FYP.
I cleared my room.
I "cleaned" my laptop of viruses.
I completed the list of presents for Han's birthday *evil smirk*

My parents and baby sister are still outside.
The brother's in his room, drowning himself in his own Indie haven.
Han's at the Arts' House with Ben, catching Jay's gig... well, I'm not complaining, considering I was supposed to be there too... but I can't make it.. sorry, love.

Mum's working tomorrow, even though it's Mother's Day.
Pffft.
So, we're probably having our Mother's Day celebration tonight.
And I've collected the dress I reserved for her from Anglia the previous week.
I've a feeling she'll like it =)

On a side note, the Glitz 2007 at The Republic Cultural Centre was... hmmm.
You've got the girls in their dresses, teetering about in freakishly high heels, the guys in their suits, a random few in their berms...
And then, there's the old hag at the desk where you register and get your seating allocations, who's just a bit old for that navy blue low cut top...
I didn't know boobs could wrinkle that much.
Honestly, the most fun I had last night, was the red carpet pictures with Ivan and the girls after the ceremony.
OSG failed us... yet again.

And Shaq owes me pictures.
She got herself a Certificate of Merit for Dragonboat.
Yup, Shaq's in Dragonboat... with Ernst, of course =)
Sweet, sweet love.

Right then.
I'm gonna abruptly end my entry here.

MARJY... YOU OWE ME PICTURES!

Thnks Fr Th Mmrs x Fall Out Boy

So, the doctor said I'll live...
No more stressing about unnecessary stuff or people.
Hah.

God.

Let's see...
I've cut my hair.
I've got myself those Melissa rubber ballet flats *yay*
And I've got myself a very,very worried Han.

It amuses me much when I see him all paranoid.
He comes up with really weird analogies and theories.
But thing is...
What happened back then... is technically the past.
Love me for who I am... not for what I was or what happened to me.
Don't blame yourself for whatever happened/is happening or would happen.
We understand each other better now.
We're no longer possessive beings.
We've grown up so much.
Don't worry about "Shit Bugger" or "This One"...

All I ever wanted or could ever want is in you.

And yes yes, let's go kidnap Bill Gates, dump him in Calcutta... let him meet Doctor Bombay, buy an island and live off coconuts...then we'll buy you Leeds United F.C, turn their fortunes around and make them the richest club in the world...

Muahahaha.

Plain White T's x A Lonely September

Plain White T's "A Lonely September" has been ringing in my head since I woke up today.
On repeat on the phone.
On repeat on Winamp.
On repeat in my mind...

On repeat, on repeat, on repeat...

Gah.

Well, I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did...
And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did.
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did...
And you didn't mean to love me back, but I know you did.

And I didn't mean to meet you then... we were just kids.
And I didn't mean to give you chills... the way that I kiss
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back but I know you did
Don't say you didn't love me back 'cause you know you did
No, you didn't mean to love me back...
But you did...

*pulls hair out*

Crypts are growing.
Yay.

The Kill x 30 Seconds To Mars

Spiderman 3 was BLEAH.

Venom's appearance was such a brief one.
Peter Parker looks bad with emo hair.
Mary Jane's kinda hot in the opening scene...ONLY.

Peter Parker took off the black suit, which was made of stuff that looked like a black version of Flubber and the Flubber thingie dropped on Eddie Brock, a photographer for the same paper Peter was working for, who already had intentions of killing Peter for revealing his fake photos of Spiderman.
Sooo... Eddie Brock together with Sandman, decided to kill Spiderman.
Norman Osborn persuaded his son to kill Peter too...
And he did that by saying... "First, we attack his heart!!" (read: M.J)

Harry Osborn finally found out from his butler that his dad "was killed by his own hands" because the wounds that he cleaned from Harry's dad was similar to that of the blades of his glider.
Harry Osborn died... fighting a battle against Venom and Sandman who held Mary Jane hostage in a cab, that was hanging from an 80 story building in Venom's black web.

So yeah.
I've spoiled the show for everyone who had plans to catch it this weekend.
Pppfft.

I don't know.
It felt like a wasted 2 1/2 hours to me.

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On a side note...

The boy's been utterly sweet.
Yes, that's him "secretly" buying me balloons.
Haha.
Love is pure ♥

Lovestoned (I Think She Knows) x Justin Timberlake

Like he said,
"14 months on the run,
sentenced to eternity together"

Love you, baby ♥
Happy 14th =)

My Paper Heart x The All American Rejects

I don't know.
I mean... I should be happy, yes?
The ones I love sure are happy.
Everything right now... seems just perfect.
So, why do I feel so hollow?

I remember what Is said to me once,
"In order for the ones you love to be happy, sometimes you gotta sacrifice more than you're willing to."

And I remember disagreeing with him.
It just felt like that was one of the stupidest things that boy ever said to me.
I asked him why should I be the one sacrificing for the sake of seeing others happy... when I'm not.
Why should anyone have to sacrifice anything/anyone for the sake of everyone else?
And he said, I won't understand till it happened to me one day.
I remember how strongly I disagreed with him... and told him that I won't ever be one of those people who'd ever do that.
I'm my own person, no one has the right to influence my decisions whatsoever.

Yet, right now... I'm being a hypocrite to myself.

And at this very moment, I'm pretty sure Han would be messaging/calling me to ask what's going on after he reads this.
Don't be mad at me for feeling like this, love...
I'm not going back on my words.
I did this for us.





there's always some reason
to feel not good enough
and it's hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction
oh, beautiful release
memory seep from my veins
let me be empty
or weightless and maybe
I'll find some peace tonight

Bedshaped x Keane

I, Wan Nurulashikin Binte Syed Hussein, solemly swear to, never,ever, ever skip another module till after 31st May 07 (read: Han's 19th =D )

It's only been the 2nd week of semester and already, this week, I've only went to school once.
Pfffft.

BUT.
The first time I did was because it was inevitable.
No, reallyyyy.

How in the world am I suppose to sit through the digital media design module with only 1/3 of my LCD displaying... while the remaining remains pitch black?
How do you start "designing" when you can't see a damn thing?!

I made my way to that Acer building in Jurong's International Business Park, where they replaced it with a new screen, right then and there.
Phew.

Then... today... errr... I reached school about 45 minutes late... and it was raining really badly... and I really wasn't in the mood to sit through a Healthcare Applications I module.

Soooo, I dragged Han, who was supposed to have Creative Media Enterprise today, along with me.
Heh.

Okay.
That's it.
No more "ponning", skipping, escaping, "it's too beautiful a day to waste in cooped up in class, so WHY ARE WE STILL HERE?!" urges.

I mean it.
And YOU, hold onto that pinkie swear.

Next time I tell you I'm considering skipping modules, kindly drag my sorry ass to class.

Heh.
Loveyouloaaaaaads.

the painnnnn.
it's been going on for hours now.

make it stop.

Better Than Me x Hinder

Right.
I've seriously haven't got the time to update.
First semester of my Final Year's off to a hectic start.

For now, I'm just....
1) Trying to figure which 4 different classes I've to get to for 4 different modules without embarrassing myself by rushing into the wrong class
2) Trying to get my voice back after a spectacularly awesome Freshmen Orientation Program
3) Trying to revive the crypts in late Bubblegum's tank (yes it died, i'm a bad,bad frog parent)
4) Trying to decide if I should accept those 2 tutoring requests...


Gah.
I need sleep.
Yes, now.

I'll leave you with the pretty long Conga line that was formed during that little "clubbing" scene we had at SIT's home base after the pretty impressive party RP threw at the football field.

It's still weird going to bed knowing that there's no Bubblegum hopping around and pigging out at night.

*sigh*

Ruby x Kaiser Chiefs

I'm starting to realise that the way I love changes as I get older...

As a kid, I loved with all my heart... love was pure.
It was my "Kindergarten love"....
You know, the kind of love where you don't have to be anyone else but yourself, when you trust whole heartedly and you didn't ask for/expect anything in return.
That person who came along and willingly shared that box of crayon was my first best friend -if a girl, my first crush - if a boy.
It's was simple, if not really logical...

As a young teen, I trusted people with all my heart AND soul.
It was my "Friends came before family, family came before self love"
I gave my friends and loved ones my all.
It was a “My best friend is never in the wrong” kinda phase.
I pledged my whole hearted loyalty to the ones I held dear.

Once school was out and everyone went their separate ways, keeping the love posed a challenge.
I won't say that some of it wasn't due to my doings.
I was always busy, I came up with excuses at times... I didn't think they'd understand what the real situation was.

I long for the days when we'll get caught by Mrs. Danapal for wearing ankle socks with out Sleeze/ North Star/Umbro skate sneakers, for the times when the class won't wanna pay up the $1 for the very important notes for the 'O' Levels and labeled me "Miss Monitress Loanshark", for days when we'll lie down at the basketball court and stare at the blue, blue skies when Mr. Andrew Yeo took our class for Physical Education and when we headed to eat in a group of 13-16 at the nearby Banquet...

Also, how can I forget our "Minah/Mat" phase when the boys got their pants tapered, the girls went ahead with DIY piercings of our tongues and noses (the pain!) and when everything ended with a "Seh, Siak, Sial, Siol, Tau takpe". *laughs*
Stupid and silly as it was, it's certainly a phase I won't forget.

Its not easy to maintain a friendship.
I've learnt from the years that had passed that it took LOADSA effort and willpower.
You can say it can be likened to a toil of blood sweat and tears with a healthy dose of humour and love.
The result?
Totally worth it.

The ones who are still with you, you treasure like gold.

As for right now, I don't love as freely as I would like to.
I've become wary and judgmental.
I haven't got a label for it yet... don't think I ever will.
I find it near impossible to allow new good friends into my life.
Especially with the ones who get too chummy with me on first meet.
I tend to get suspicious of their intentions.
It became like a “what do they want from me” thing.

But of course there are a handful of new good friends that I've gotten acquainted with in the recent years.

And oh, how can I forget the fact that I met a boy named Han, who initially was a nice, shy guy friend (who've seen me rough it out playing soccer, pretty much impersonating a deranged, sweating gorilla in a state of panic) who somehow managed to make me fall for him when we decided to "pon" school at 8.23 am on a gorgeous Thursday morning over a year ago.... and who now has been sharing and exploring a romantic relationship with me for 14 months, 8 days ♥

It's been totally worth it.

Bang x Yeah Yeah Yeahs

Stomach flu.
Again.

So, here comes the indescribable coldness, accompanied with the unexplained perspiring.
Again.

Oh.
The puking's here to stay too.
Again.

Hopefully, I'll be up and running by the time FOP arrives.

Wait For You x Elliot Yamin

First FYP meeting today with the ladies =)
It went well...
Minus the fact that we kept digressing when Zann and Lala started talking dirty *faints*
I'm pretty positive we'll generate a great end product.

Here's them.
My FYP Wonder Women.

Linda, Lala, Zann

Being around them brought back so many memories of the days when we were still in E35N.
Pretty darn awesome times.
Heck, I can't remember a semester where there were modules that I didn't skip even for a day.

Manymanymany extremely hyper moments....

Like this...


And this...


And DEFINITELY this.


We all love this eccentric woman.

Side note...

I miss you, love ♥

credits: Han ♥

well, you are the one, the one that lies close to me
whispers hello, i miss you quite terribly
i fell in love, in love with you suddenly
now there's no place else i could be but here in your arms...


G'night all =)

Last Night x Diddy Feat Keisha Cole

There's nothing better than a Great Romance to ruin a
Perfectly Good Friendship

happy 13th, sweet sweet love.

credits: Han *huggggggggggggs*

RP Song That Never Ends x 100 odd RP seniors at today's mock FOP camp

The song above REALLY does exist.

Republic Polytechnic's Freshmen Orientation Programme(FOP) '07
11th to 13th April 2007

We're gonna welcome approximately 4000 freshies on that day.

1000 odd goes to SEG.
900 odd goes to SIT.
Another 900 odd goes to SAS.
Approximately 200 goes to SHL.
And the remaining 1000 odd are divided into STA, CIE and CCC.

So, the theme this year is "Prison Break".
Annnnd... instead of the differently designed RP short sleeved "dri-fit" tees/polos that they come up with for just about any event...

we have to wear dark blue jumpsuits

Yes.
JUMPSUITS.
Like the ones Scoffield, Sucre and all of them stole, bleached and wore to break into the psych ward so they could break out of Fox River.
They allowed us to spray praint and stencil them to make it look "cooler"...
But still!?

Are you kidding me, RP?!

Oh.
There's a mass dance too....
We're gonna jig to "Jailhouse Rock".
A rock 'n' roll number where everyone ends up doing their own steps instead of the choreographed ones.
Is it me or are they taking the whole prison theme a tad too far?

There's also an RP War Cry.
Done with the same actions and angst you find in the All Blacks' Haka before they murder their opponents.
*faints*

Run The Yard aka Scavenger Hunt which covers the entire campus...
Meaning I'll be running around with say... 30 odd freshies who don't know each other?
The Republic Cultural Centre to the Sports Complex to the One-Stop Centre... you get the point.

The Game Plan aka Telematch at the indoor sports hall if it rains.... the soccer pitch if it doesn't.
The chaos. *spasms*

And FINALLY FINALLY FINALLY, on the evening of 13th April.
We're ending with a splendid Jam & Hop happening all the way till late night.

Oh god.
I'm so not ready for the pandemonium, the cheering, the screaming and the going bonkers.

What did I get myself into!?

Cupid's Chokehold x Gym Class Heroes

i'm so damn worried.

so many "WHAT IF'S"
so little reassurances...

Your Boyfriend Sucks x The Ataris

I'm feeling sick-ish.
Han too.

nagging conscience says:
See la.
Go get yourselves caught in the rain some more la.

Pffft.

head's sooo heavyyyy...

Another Perfect Day x American Hi-Fi

Hi!! *flashes a megawatt grin*

How are you doing?
Heh.
I'm great, actually =)

Gotta go buy Bubblegum's food later on.
Nasty crickets that keep escaping from the tank.
But Bubblegum loves them.

I think Bubblegum's getting over its habit of hiding when I turn the tank lights on.
It stares back at me now when I turn on the "Sun" and stare at it, the first thing when I wake up in the morning.
That takes courage... considering I look like a disaster when I roll out of bed.
And it's no longer hiding in that tiny space... at the back of the tank.
Or maybe its because it can no longer squeeze itself in without looking like a piece of chewed up chewing gum being squished by someone's finger.

Han doesn't seem to like Bubblegum very much though.
Every time he comes over and looks into the tank and spots it, he'll go,
"Hello, twat..."
Or when he can't find it, he'll ask,
"Where's that twat?"

-_-

Moving away from the topic of my adorable pet...
Gonna have to drag my ass back to campus this Friday.
For that visit to the Eurasian Association at friggin 10.10 a.m.
Urghhh.

Then, on Monday...
The boy and I are going to finally, finally meet up with Germs for some long-overdued catching up, lounging on comfy couches and exchanging of souvenirs from Thailand (from Han & I) and I think she went to Hong Kong or something.
Supposedly, she was going to fly off to Bangkok this Saturday, but the bird flu thing put her off the idea.
I miss Thailand =(

Finally, next weekend.
I'm going to drop by the red dot museum.
For their MAAD market!
Came across the publicity done for it and saw a lot of great looking one-off pieces like tees, sneakers, photography pieces and whatnot done by local artists.
They take the opportunity to showcase and sell their stuff at the MAAD market.
No one in the streets is going to have the same stuff as you.
Cool shit.
Eeshaun's one of them too =)

And lastly, next time we go out pleasepleaseplease don't feed me anything that contains cheese.

I get extremely hyper and my manners go out the window.
Hah.
I look like a berserk cheese deprived bitch.

Right.
Gotta run and get crickets for my baby.

Fraggle Rock x Allister

So stressed up.
Urgh.

Hah.
Life's a joke.

No, seriously.
Okay,fine.

MY life's a joke.

I Try x Macy Gray

Dear God,

Please make me force myself to wake up when I hear my alarm go off at 8.30 a.m. tomorrow.
Please take away this unwillingness to drag myself out of bed from me so that I can have a good swim at the pool again.
Please don't let the boy talk me into having fast food for lunch after the workout.

And please please please take away this dreadfully small but superbly painful pimple on my nose where my nose stud used to be.
I promise to never,ever,ever pierce my nose again.
I was 15, stupid and rebellious.

Thank you.

Grand Theft Autumn x Fall Out Boy

Finally finally finally, the boy and I went to catch 300.
Oh My Holy God.

300's Official Movie Site

We caught it at The Grand Cathay and needless to say with the THX surround sound and the digital format used for the movie in the theater, it left a mammoth sized impression on me.

It was awesomeeeeeeeee.
Go catch it!!!!

And oh, side note to Han...

I found a site that ships that kick-ass Immortal Mask *does a happy jig*

She's Madonna x Robbie Williams

Life's been pretty damn near flawless lately.
FINALLY, everything's beginning to steer in the right direction.

Everything meaning...
Family & friends wise...
Financially wise...
Academically wise...
and Love wise...

A big, fat, happy grin to that =)

Semester 2's results are out.
I'm ecstatic =D
Have to up my GPA grades a bit though, if I'm seriously thinking of pursuing a few more years in this dreaded field called "Studying", in an institution called the "University", if I want to attain this slip of paper called a "Degree" once that part of my life is over and done with.

Lastly, on a side note, I really miss Marquee...
A whole lot.
Truckloads full.
Last time I saw EVERY SINGLE ONE of you was during our exhibition at The Pharos...


Oh! Doorbell's ringing!
Now, wonder who that could be... *grins*

This Ain't A Scene, It's An Arms Race x Fall Out Boy

i love your complete lack of grasp of the fundamental points of logical thoughts.

That's So You x The Rocket Summer

I want to introduce you all to....

Bubblegum
Scientific name : Polypedates leucomystax

My new roomie.
Who's territory is a nicely scaped, big tank on my desk.

Does extremely cool Batman impersonations when looking for food at night.

The only thing that's holding me back from picking it out from it's tank and giving it a hug is... that fear of squishing it to death with my thumb.

Yes, it's a very small frog.

Putra Rifqy Luelza Bin Mohd. Zamilreza

Turned 7 days old as of today =)

That makes... 9 nephews and nieces.
Oh, another nephew's along the way.

Due on the 20th of this month =)

Sim Beng Han

I'd spent a year with this boy as of yesterday =)

Lovely lunch
Kick-ass movie = Letters from Iwo Jima
Origami flowers.
Red packet.
Wired hearts.
A single baby sock.
Late night lit up scented candles.
Notes.
Letters.
Cards.
Photographs

and truckloads of love.

i'm one very happy human being

Beautiful Ones x Suede

31536000 seconds.525600 minutes.8760 hours.365 days.48 weeks.12 months.1 year

you & me.

words so tender
I surrender
to this feeling
so true
my affirmation
my inspiration
darling,I have been blessed with you.

loveyou.youshouldalreadyknowthat =)

credits(for picture & edits): Karin & Lamms =)