Beautiful Love x The Afters

I pried my somnolent eyes open.
Greeted by the monotonous hum of the air conditioner.
Not a wisp of cool, cold,fresh morning air surround me.
Is it any wonder why I long to be back in Baan Ruammit?

I looked out my bedroom window.

And was met with looming, dull HDB flats.

And that insipid, grey, multi-storey carpark.

No tall mountains, no greeneries, no beautiful elephants.

Is it any wonder why I long to be back in Baan Ruammit?

I walked out into town.

Not a single, friendly, smiling entity.

No stranger putting their hands together, a sincere smile doing justice to their already striking features... and greeting me with a warm "Sawatdeekah".

Is it any wonder why I long to be back in Baan Ruammit?

Time passes by way too fast here.
Its too hectic.
I can no longer take my time, to take a step back, to take a breather.
I don't get to catch no beautiful sunset.
Nature's presence is no longer apparent to my senses.
Is it any wonder why I long to be back in Baan Ruammit?

I walked over into the balcony and looked up into the night sky.

No more interstellar wonder to witness,every single time Bella Luna gaze down on me.

Asking for shooting stars would be way too much, no?

Is it any wonder why I long to be back in Baan Ruammit?

*sigh*

I really want to go back there.

And and and and...

GUESS WHAT!?

The Father said YES to me going back there...even agreed to sponsor some.

And I love the Father moooorrrrrrrrreeeeeeee now =D

I'm just hopin the rest of the troupers are serious about going back there.

*crosses fingers*

Over It x Rufio

Post-Christmas Thank Yous.

Thank you Bob for the big-ass Yorkie chocolate bar.

Thank you Ben for the box of Ferrero Rochers.

Thank you Farhan for the box of Merci.

Thank you Diana for the box of After-Eight.

THANK YOU Uncle Sammy for the Star Wars DVD *does a happy jig*

And thank YOU...

For braving the late night massive crowd at Town on Christmas Eve for me, just because I wanted to see the lights.

I know how you abhor crowds, love =)

Always x Bon Jovi

I should not, should not, should not, should not be feeling the way that I do right now.
But I can't seem to hinder myself from feeling this way.
Or maybe, I'm not doing anything to stop them cos I like the way it feels.
Hmmmm.


Ah, heck.
Let me go drown myself into that Batman comic I loaned out the other day.


Yes, even girls read action hero comics.


OH YES.
Spurs up to spot number 7 on the table, while I was still away in Thailand.
That's like, 6 spots up!!


Just.Plain.Awesome.

How To Save A Life x The Fray

I'm baccccccckkkkkkkkk =)

Thailand was a BLAST.

I didn't want to even think about going home, and hey, I wasn't the only one who felt like burning my passport and getting a citizenship there.

I could lead a very... peaceful, slow-paced lifestyle there... maybe even be the first female elephant mahout.

Heh.

And shopping... good lord.

Mai peng!!

7 tops for lesser than 60 Singapore bucks!?

That's unheard of here.

I'll update more when I've recuperated enough.

Still jet-lagged, lethargic and ears are still blocked.

Urghhh.

On a brighter note, Han's coming over to pick me up for dinner in less than 2 hours.

=)

Dear Han,

But wherever I may be

Best believe I'm thinking of u

I cant believe how much I love you...

And...I love you forever

Anytime that we find ourselves apart.

Just close your eyes

And you'll be here with me

Just look to your heart and that's where I'll be

If you just close your eyes...

Till you're drifted away

You'll never be too far from me

You know I'm gonna see you again.

Promise me that you won't forget.

Cos as long as you remember

A part of us would be together

So, even when you're fast asleep

Look for me inside your dreams

Keep believing in what we're sharing.

And even when I'm not there to tell you..
I love.. love you.. forever

I'll be back real soon, baby.

17 days gonna pass by just like that.

I'm so looking forward to so many more days with you.

And all the plans we made for Christmas... and the outings with my baby sister (=

I'll call.

Promise.

Loves,

Shikin

Awwwwwwwwwww.

Just WHO is this adorable, widdle, round round cutie?!

A Clue.

It starts with a H.

And rhymes with ...err... Kan.

Very difficult, yes, I know.

Now, go wreck your brains.

And many years later(today), this lil babe, is still cute, in soooo many ways... minus the extra droopy cheeks, from the picture up above.

=)

Hey Han,

9 months together today...

I want a million more (=

xoxoxoxo,

Shikin <3

You're Not Alone x Saosin

Okokkkk.
I know, I know.

Jabs photos are sooo out-dated.. but I just feel like posting 'em.

Best thing was, we took our jabs LAUGHING.

And the nurses were trying to stabilize us, so they could... poke us properly?

2 pokes, no less.

OUCH

Linda & I walked out from TTSH's Travellers' Health &amp;amp;Vaccination Clinic with Influenza & Typhoid serums flowing through our system.

Heh (=

Sososososo, Thailand trip commences in exactly 11 days.

Yes, shopping lists gonna be done up!

And yes, I'm psyched!

And yes, I'm relatively worried.

And YES, don't you ever doubt it, I'm gonna be so deprived.

Which is exactly why I'm tryina eat,breathe,sleep you for the next 11 days.

Shikin : "Woooots! 17 days in Thailand, baby!"

Han: "Yeah, 17 days of worrying..."

Awwww, love.

I'll be back before you know it.

And NO, I WON'T get you a transvestite from Thailand.

NOT EVER.

I'll be veryvery jealous.

There, There x Radiohead

So, today SUCKED(big time).
And is still SUCKING(big time).
And will continuously SUCK(big time) for the rest of the day.

Woke up late.
Nothing to wear.
Silence on the way to campus.
Turned up late for IT Security class.
Faced a downright "chim" problem statement.
Can't seem to understand ANYTHING even after 2nd meeting.. don't know what.. public key encrytion & private key decryption.

And the only thing that cheered me up today was Julian's comments for the OSC module:

I like your positive and proactive approach towards learning.
You are not afraid to volunteer answers and solutions to the problem.
You stand up among the crowd to be noticed!

RJ:This is certainly one of the best RJ's I have come across. For your efforts as well as your performance and participation in the class, you definitely deserve an "A" grade from me this week.Yes, the OSC module is as you put it, more of a "boy-thing" but I have seen some exceptions. What is more important and to the point is that the team, consisting of girls was able to excel and out-do the boys with an excellent presentation. No doubt there were a lot of difficulties in trying to come up with a consensus but at the end of the day your team really excelled in terms of the quality and depth of reasoning.

I didn't even talk much during class.

I need more excitement in my life, people.
MORE PLEASE!!!!!


And more money too.

14 days to Thailand =D

I love marquee.
Reallyyyyy =D


17 days in Thailand.
Hell yeah!!

Marquee Whoosh!

First. Somewhere-in-the-midst. Recent.

You tirelessly take away my barricade & melt away my heart.

love you

Losing My Way x Justin Timberlake

Give 3 very famished + very tired + very bored girls a MacBook and you get....

Exhibit A (of Marj + Rio + Skin)

Ok, so I was the one who did the "1...2...3... *clicks touchpad to take photo*.

But yeah, touchpad got the best of me... soooo... it resulted in this smexy photo.

Exhibit B (of sexy pout Marj + i'm MELTING Rio + high forehead-ed Skin)

Exhibit C (of omg-what's-wrong-with-your-face Rio)

And there's more where those came from =)

Less than a month to Thailand.

Wooooohoooooooo!

Blind x Lifehouse

Here goes the long overdued entry on my birthday celebrations with the familyyyyy.
I'll make it suuuuuuuuuper short cos there's 2 waiting RJs that need completion by midnight.
Time-Check 2316 hours.

Shites.

So, there's me,with my scrumptious, fantabulous, triple chocolate birthday cake with ONE big red candle and EIGHT small, multi-coloured candles.

Mum forced me to make a wish and usually I don't believe in those sorta things... but I did anyways.

When it comes true, I'll tell ya *grins*

Lovely, girlish presents from them all!!

Much loves <3

The sinful birthday cake from Dad, a Chomel necklace from Aisya, a rustic handbag from Baby Sis, a dress from Mum, a bottle of perfume, "Loving You", from Baby Bro and a super cute "Oo-La-La" jewellery box from Saliha.

It's very much appreciated, y'all. And thank you ever so much for the efforts made.

Hugs, Shikin (:

What Hurts The Most x Rascal Flatts

i've made it obvious.
i never really moved on.
i'm in no better position but to wait.
just a while longer.

i haven't said this in awhile
guess i'll say it anyways.


love ya.

Run x Snow Patrol

Ok.
Here commences the first (long overdued) 18th birthday entry.
I'll do one birthday memory per entry yea.
Cos I can't upload many pictures at once, due to the fact that blogger hates me.

After this entry, the Family+Cousins entry, the Germs entry and the Linda + Lala entry shall come.
Not that many, right... hence, shouldn't be much of a problem.

This year's first proper celebration, which was on the day itself, 26th October, was celebrated with Mr Han.
Firstly, my sincerest apologies if you don't like the pictures I put up (cos you think you look gay. Which is so not true -_- ).

The day started at 8.20 am, on 26th October 2006, a Thursday, and yup, you guessed it, we both "ponned" at the last minute.
He wished me "Happy Birthday Morning!" when we met in the morning, "Happy Birthday Afternoon!", when we headed to RP for his UT and "Happy Birthday Night!", when we were at Istana Park that evening.
Like... okkkk =D

Oh, and his gifts came in parts.
1st Part - An unblown balloon, cos he wants me to get over my fear of it
2nd Part - The real birthday gifts, which was unnecessarily alot

We went to watch The Guardian, which opened that day, at the 10.40 a.m. time slot at The Cathay.
Show was goooood, a tad too long, but nonetheless, pretty much worth the money we paid for it.

We had to come back for school for Han's UT, then proceeded to Breeks! at Taka for dinner for two.

A hearty meal for two, consisting of Bibim Baps (a Korean dish he refuses to pronounce), Garlic Mashed Potatoes, Iced Honey Lemon Tea & some funny named drink I had.

(No, you look fine. Really)

After the long dinner, we headed to Istana Park, where he gave me my presents *gushes*
Last minute checks... so conscious.. kinda sweet too =)

And the entire box, was beautifully wrapped, with this suuuuppppeeeeeeeeeer nice wrapper. I reallyreallyreally appreciate the effort.

TA-DA!
The gifts from him.

A beautiful silver bracelet with my name engraved(so shiny! I love <3), this card that was filled with words on one side and he drew Happy Birthday Shikin on the other, a hot pink + black notebook/diary (from this shop that sells rad notebooks that I could never afford), lovely little diamonte hoops (which I've always wanted. honest!), an Esprit top(nice!), and Ferrero Rochers(ok, I'm a sucker for chocolates, and he knows).

We had a Zebra brownie from The Brownie Factory (even though we were already darn full) to substitute for a not-really-needed birthday cake.

Thanks Han,

For such a lovely, lovely birthday.

I wouldn't change a single thing about it, even if I could.

Loves, Shikin

Greetings all,

Some good news!

Our first sponsors have arrived! He's a private individual named Andy Lee, and he's kindly donated $200 to our efforts.

Wooohooo!

Marquee Yo!
Bob










That's 200 bucks off our efforts.
YAY MARQUEE!!!

My Love x Justin Timberlake Feat. T.I

Birthday entry shall be done up soon once I'm done collage-ing everything, cos there's quite a number of photos taken, with different people on different days.

And NO Han, you DO NOT look gay in any of 'em -_-
And NO Germs, George Washington isn't your husband.
And baby sister still owes me a pair of shoes!! HEH.
Pretty fulfilling birthday, especially the one that was celebrated on the 26th itself.
So damnnnnnnnnnnn awesome.

Digresses.

Marquee Troupe II taking up a lot of my time, so much so that I told my supervisor I can't come to work till further notice.
And taking the Typhoid and Flu jabs with them at TTSH realreal soon.
They're real nice, fun people!
And I learnt Thai.

Chan che Shikin ka.
Hong num yu ni tai?
PENG MAK MAK!
or Linda's version Mak Pek Pek -_-

Digresses.

Hari Raya this year pretty slackish.
But show me the mon-ay.
Lotsa Yusof Ishaks rolling in thus far, satisfying my needs and wants.
*huge grin*

Alright, y'all.
Gotta go deal with Operating Systems now.
Which is such a !#$*%@ module.
Urghhh.

I don't wanna feel

The way that I do

I just wanna be

Right here with you
I don't wanna see
See us apart
I just wanna say it
Straight from my heart

I miss you

What would it take for you to see
To make you understand that I'll always believe

You and I can make it through

And I still know I can't get over you

And, when our love seems to fade away

Listen to me, hear what I say.

I'll always believe.

Righttttt.
5th week into Semester 2 and I've gotten veryvery interesting comments from my facilitators.
Let's see 'em.

Web Application : Which is SHITTY, cos we deal with codes every single week. With no source codes given! I don't really favour this module and I strongly believe that the first UT grade I acquired was a "tyco grade".

Comments by Ashwin:

Your performance was, as usual, very satisfactory. You always work very hard in the class. Your strong motivation and urge to learn more also pushes to do your best in order to find the solutions of the problems. Very often, I have noticed that you use the 2nd breakout to work with your friend from another team. I think that this opportunity allows both of you to learn from one another.You must improve your programming skills. You are already quite good compared to others. But there is always room for improvement.Another aspect that you must improve is your punctuality. You have been late for a few classes, and I did not lower your grades, even though I am supposed to do so. But I feel that assigning a lower grade may cause your motivation to fade out. So, please try to be on time. The school is also very strict on this matter now.This morning we discussed the UT answers. If you have any queries, you can still ask me or your friends.

-------------RJ-----------
I think that your good grades for UT1 were the results of your hard-work. Most probably some help from your friends was also useful, but your personal efforts account for most it. As you mentioned, now use the good grade as a motivator to excel, and gain even more momentum.Of course, we must be prepared to write lots of codes and debug in the future weeks, but these are fun! Don’t you think so?

OH MY GOD ASHWIN!
Damn long,can!?


System Analysis and Design : Which I don't understand cos every week, you draw diagram after diagram and you study and analysis the designs of corporations, businesses and blahs. Urgh.

Comments by Soon:

Shikin, you did very well today but were late for class. You raise good questions during Meeting 2, but could have performed better in Meeting 3. Yes, I enjoyed myself very much today, and I hope you do, including all future classes.


I've to do something about my punctuality, man.
2nd faci to have voiced that out.


Sales Management : An elective module which is soooo totally awesome. Every week, we do something new, without a power point presentation. Sammy Arvis is kinda cute too. Hehs.

Comments by Sammy:

I noticed you were a bit shy during the 2nd meeting, I think you shouldn’t be. You had some interesting points to make. Your participation in 3rd meeting was satisfactory because you made 2 interesting comments about other teams’ role plays.That is a very interesting example which shows how important it is.

I'm shy,eh?
Goshhhh. First time someone said that.

Operating Systems Concept : Which is sucky cos you study motherboards and RAM and whatever stuff that BOYS are more into. Boys like TRISTAN. And honestly, the facilitator, Ben Gay, is kinda... weird.

Comments by Ben:

You have raised a few good points here. I see you are positive about this module. You were able to distinguish the importance. One thing to take note is the calculation for clock rate. You might want to pay extra attention to it.

Honestly, I don't even remember seeing anything about "clock rates".
Like what the hell is that, and how does that benefit me at all??

IT Security & Management : Which is kinda okay cos the facilitator's really nice =) And somehow, I enjoy finding out how to hack and crash into people's networks, how to sniff out passwords and all that.

Comments by Tek Ming:

Ha ha ha....thanks for being honest with your view. Can't blame you for thinking that way. To a student, it is important to obtain good grades. It is useful when getting a place in a university and useful when applying for job.You're definately not the only one taking this approach. I'm sure many will abuse it for their personal gain.
I've students telling me they will use this ability for Toto and 4D. Ha ha ha...I should say it is human nature for thinking that way. Fortunately this is a fictitious scenerio set for the fun of it in RJ. Otherwise, for the grade case, it will be a serious breach of the confidentiality and integrity of the grading system.
Thanks for your time and effort in writing your RJ. I've enjoyed reading it. Despite what you wrote I'm sure if such situation arises, you will handle it in an upright manner.I'm also glad you've enjoy the lesson. Hope you will continue to do so for the remaining weeks.
Thanks for the feedback too. I didn't know I have hypnotizing skill. Will make sure I switch to a non-hypnotizing skill in future lessons. The last thing I want is to make my students sleepy. I want to make them relax but not to the extend of going into sweet dream mode.
Generally I'm happy with the performance of this class. You like the rest have put in effort. I may not see the extra sparks from you to award you an A but I'm sure you're not short of any ability to achieve it in future lessons. Thanks again for your wonderful RJ. Cheers!

Another DAMN long one.
But it shows he puts in effort to sorta validate me and I appreciate it.
He gave me an A the following week too.

Hahaha.
This semester's gonna be pretty interesting.
More A's please!

Geylang last night was SUCH A HORROR.

I bumped into a lot of old peeps though.

Kept on having to stop to shriek a lil + hug + exchange numbers + move away with promises of lunch or dinner.

And while I was there, I reallyreally felt the atmosphere of Raya.

I can't wait!

*Digresses*

I've been baking... ALOT.

Pictures would be uploaded soon yeap?

=)

I still don't know how I manage the time to bake though.

Let's see.

Mondays to Fridays - School takes up most of the day

Saturdays & Sundays - Off to work at friggin 6 a.m.

I forgot how it feels like to have a weekend break.

I can't even keep track of the days of the week.

BUT

I do know that Raya is in 2 friggin short days!

And I've yet to buy me a new bedsheet + quilt cover set.

My bed and quilt now is like... snow white.

It needs colour.

Window has no drapes up yet.

But I cleared my room out... and changed the pictures in the frames with new ones.

I'm satisfied.

AND

I do know I'll be turning 18 in a few more days.

Dad : How old would u be turning this year? 17?

Me : God. You don't even know your eldest kid's age. *scowls* 18 lar.

Dad: Oh my god. I've been a dad for 18 years now.

Me : Yeah. I can register to marry already, know *cheeky grin*

Dad :*throws the newspaper he was reading at me* Your head arh. You don't even know how to operate the washing machine, wanna marry already. Tsk.

Gosh Fatherrrrrrrrrrrrr.

Oh my god.

I think I'm really going to Thailand this December.

2 weeks, with Bob Tan and the Marquee Troupe people.

Greetings Nurul

Bob here.
Can we have a chat with you sometime this week?

When's good?

Cheers

I'm nerve-wrecked!!!
And he called me "Nurul".
Mannnn.
That's bad, Bob.

A Day Late x Anberlin

Right.
Lotsa people I know have been saying that they REALLYREALLYREALLY wanna go to Vivocity

Yes,yes... Over one million square feet, largest cinema... blahblahblah.

But really when I went there, its just like Marina Square, only bigger.
Esprit, Missha,Topshop, Warehouse, Crocs, Giant Hypermarket... they're all there, though only 60% of the shops are opened.

And as usual (and as a plus-point to the female population of Singapore!!), its overladden with women wear, accessories shops, shoe shops and all things girly.

I went to catch a movie there.
Scoop.

Which was soooo NOT worth my $8.
The seats are kinda awkward for me.
Its turquoise-ish plush, with a little wooden table at the front of the arm rest, to be shared by two.

But of ALL the things that made Vivocity HUGE.
I like the dock at the top best.
Its a wide, open-aired space that overlooks the waters that connects Sentosa to Harbourfront.
Really nice place to be at (=

Formal wear for Sammy's Sales Management class tomorrow.

And Fred already said he's gonna go all out.

Blazer, tie, long sleeved button downs, the works.

We'll see =P

So Contagious x Acceptance

Someone got Class 2 licence already SEH.
If I got it right that is... Class 2 eh??
Hehs.

Goodbye Gilera RunnerSP50(a.k.a Lily. Don't ask)

Hello Honda CB400 Super Four (a.k.a Cupid. This is even lamer lar, Is -_- )

Ok, happy now?

Your public announcement has been made.

You owe me big time =P

Run x Snow Patrol

My mind's all mangled.
Like... I don't know what's happening around me.
I put on this smile and hyperness, but for how long can i put up with these pretence?


Thus far, things are pretty alright, I suppose.
Only that seemingly, I look at everything from a different view, with a different objective.
I don't even know if that's good or bad.


I used to love it when October comes.


Used to, being the main word here.


Urgh.
Stop it already.

I talked to Mum today. While baking cookies and such.

And I poured everything out like I've never poured to anyone before... and I wanted so badly to cry, to let go of everything so that she knows... and I think somehow, she knows..everything.

Well, almost.

The painful ones, I wanna keep them for my own.

To stop caring, is to stop loving - The Notebook

Fix You x Coldplay

An ordinary being who made everything else loads more memorable.
And right now, I'm wishing I had many more memories created.
It could never suffice... no matter how long... or how many.

A want which turned into a need.
A need which somehow weaved itself into every single thing in my life that was downright damn important to me.

Waking up everyday knowing that you've something to live for.
Someone to look up to.
Someone to give you strength, hope, to love and to hold.

It's different waking up from my sleep knowing that you're not mine anymore.












When you love someone but it goes to waste...
What could be worst?

Sound Effects and Overdramatic x The Used

I'm feeling veryveryvery random.
So, don't mind me if I keep skipping from one topic to another.

Needing something really badly would surely trigger one to do anything within his/her means to achieve it...
Right?

I DON'T KNOW.
It's not in MY place to say.

Andddddddddddd...
Andddddddddddd...
Farhan asked me what I wanted for the 26th.

*coughs*BodyShopPerfume*wheezes*RunningOutOfSupplyAtHome*cough*

Ahem.
I'm fine, thank you.

I'm in a particularly good, jumpy,bouncy mood today.

Andddddddddddd...
Andddddddddddd...
Saw Shaz on my way to W2 and she practically screamed across the Agora;
"KAK SKINNNN!!! I GOT PRISON BREAK'S ENTIRE SEASON!!" *bounces**jumps*hops*

Lala went something like,
"Another jumpy person... -_-" "

And both Shaz and I were kinda bouncing up and down, holding hands in the middle of Agora... for no apparent reason.
Hyperness was and still is; addictive (=

Andddddddddddd...
Andddddddddddd...
I miss my long fringe.
I miss being irritated by it.
I miss blowing it away when it gets into my eye or tickles my nose.
I miss tucking it behind my ear.

I need it to grow back before my birthday....

Andddddddddd....

Andddddddddd....

I miss......
A whole lot.
Alotalotalot.

Miss what?
My fringe, lar.
*sighs*

*the entry's kinda irritating with the "Anddddddd...Anddddddddd", right? I know!

Choke On This x Senses Fail

Change of blogskin.

Credited to Ayul =D

Who dealt very well with me who was a very petty "client"

Thanks, hon...

For my very own personalised skin from NutingDzines.

Now, go get your ass to Starbucks.

Liar (It Takes One To Know One) x Taking Back Sunday

If I were to type text into an entry today, it'll automatically incline itself towards emo-ism.
So, I'll save both YOU and ME the trouble and let loose some photos instead.
Deal?
Good.

Meet bound-to-be-twoyearsold-Zulhailah Nafira... or I think that's her name. We just call her Ira.

She's so minute... so much so that I keep on wanting to squeeze her into a tiny box whenever this lil' tyke comes screeching to a halt just below my knee. And she jabbers. A whole lot of mish-mash. It all sounds like "Kokipo" or "Ichaaa!!!". So, to communicate, I'd make the same sound to sorta "reply" and everytime I do so, she'll crack up.

She's making a fool out of me.

Oh, we went to buy some finger food for breaking fast at Serangoon the other day. Whilst happily sitting in my arms she turned to me, put on this serious expression and said;

"Auntieeee.. Ira want ju-on and kuki-yah."

I went , "Huh?"

I swear she looked pissed that I didn't understand her.

So, she kicked her legs about to indicate that she wants to be let down, ran to the table where the Roti Johns and Popiahs were, pointed to them and shrieked at me...

"JU-ON!! KUKI-AH!!"

Right. Now I getcha, babe.

Next up, new classmates, new modules, new facilitators. (Except for Gina up there.)

So far, class is lively, new mates are funnnnyyyy, facilitators are interesting and are all males, my Web App. facilitator, Ashwin, brings chocolates in, for EVERYONE, EVERYWEEK.

Like, whoaa... I like you already =)

Stuff that's bound for the 26th of this month arrived 13 days too early!

Stone-wash Vintage Issue denim skirt from Fox(which makes two Fox skirts... which I rarely wear).

. Kimono-inspired top from Potpourri(looks similar to the one I have, only that the flower motifs are different).

Bronze and silver "Glam Dangs" from Topshop.

Thanks a million you-know-who-you-guys-&-gals-are.

But really, I'd rather the presents STOP now.

I don't see any reason to celebrate this year.

Usually, I'll start "counting down" the moment the 1st of October starts showing up, but right now... celebrating's the last thing on my mind.

It'll take a tons of truckloads of "Miracle Dust" to turn this year's into a HAPPY Birthday.

On a "brighter note", I'm still sick and I've work tomorrow and Sunday.

Aaaaah... I just "lovelovelove" my life.

*pulls hair*

Did I disappoint you... or let you down, Mr Sim?

Laugh with me so I don't cry.

Live with me so I don't die.

Hold my hand,

Kiss my nose.

Defend me against what life throws.

White Flag x Dido

I came across this today:

"Don't fall in love if it equates to getting hurt;
Don't have high expectations if it equates to acquiring disappointment"

If that's true...
Then, am I in the wrong to still love and have high expectations despite getting hurt and disappointed??

If you don't get hurt, then, you won't treasure love, right?
Its like... after it heals and all... you realise the one single reason why you're still in this thing.
Cos you loved enough.

Despite of how many ex-girlfriends/boyfriends you've had before, no single relationship is ever the same.

You just don't fall for the same sort of person the second time round.
You just don't fall easily,either.
But every single time...
After you felt as if your search is over(for now, or whatever), that one person you thought was the right one would make you fall out of love.


-------------------------------------------------------
True love is found...
When you see their flaws...
When you understand their weaknesses...
When you overlook their imperfections...
And somehow...
You still can't live without them.
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Why the emo entry?
I don't know.

I'll still love, though.
Till I strongly feel that I'm beyonddddddddd repair.

I just wish somebody would love me too.

Happy 8th monthsary, Han.

With truckloads of TLC,

Wan Nurulashikin Binte Syed Hussein

=D

But It's Better If You Do x Panic At The Disco

Finally, a Saturday.

Free from PBL and EmiratesSingaporeAirlinesAirChinablablabla.

And I'm one heck of a tired girl.

Reallyreally drained and sleep deprived.

Its the fasting month.
So, I can't supposedly suck on sweets to keep me awake, especially when I'm in class.

And on top of everything else, I have a feeling that pimples are gonna start playing peek-a-boo on the face.

Cos I've spotted one already.

The horror.

Let it just stay as one pimple please and go away quickly too!

Aidilfitri's in like 3++ weeks!?

Pffft.

Elective's on Wednesdays.

And I've got me a prettypretty facilitator.

Sammy Arvis.

Yes ladies, the hunkalicious, you-look-oh-so-cute-when-you-grin fac.

But nahhh... He's married with an adorable one year old boy babe.

And oh.

The boy's been really awesomely sweet this entire week.

Reallyyyyyyyyyyyyy lor *gushes*

Sending me all the way to the doorstep of my humble abode (=

On top of being the busybusy during curriculum hours and pretty "sian-ed" after curriculum hours STA dude, I could still count on him to be there with me <3

And honestly, I feel at my most secure state after quite some time.

I adore you (=

Oh yes, bestie luv...

While you were bedridden at Changi General Hospital a few weeks back, your lil cousin, took the opportunity to demand me to take snapshots with him.

And girl, if you do anything stupid to yourself again, I'm gonna personally kill you.

I mean it.

Ok, ignore the act-cute-nessism thingie going on. So wrong.

And that boy, is Neh-nel. Ok, his name is Danial... but he can't pronounce it right...yet. He's a 5-year-old with the understanding ability of a 30-year-old. So, you gotta watch what you say around him.

To him,I'm Kak Chickin.

Yeah, really. Cos we went to Sentosa one fine day long ago, and that Chicky dude from KFC happened to be there. So the name kinda stuck.

Ok, lemme go get off this bed and get started on doing somethin productive.

Happy weekends,people!

If Your Heart's Not In It x Westlife

Been listening to this bloody song by Westlife. Can't help but feel so... "related" to it?

Yerp.

Nobody said it was easy... nobody told me it would be this hard.

Oh well. We'll see what happens.

And I meant it when I said I don't wanna celebrate my birthday this year.

Really.

*on a brighter note*

Lala's blog entry is just toooooo sweet!!!!!
And I can't help but feel that the 2nd last paragraph's for me.
Or is it?
Hehs.
But I didn't cry what... not in front of them, at least.
They laugh with me instead... and they make me chuck aside stuff that makes me sad.

Yes, screw the new mates every semester thing RP practices.
But then again, I wouldn't have met those who made my life loads more fun-ner.

Like in PN0207, my darling UMNOs!

Peemates, we need our daily dose of teh peng 24/7 mates, camwhoring mates, shopping mates, boob and butt squeezing while running up the stairs mates.
And I can so remember how genuinely happy they were for me when he happened to me.
And how we were happy for Iffa when he happened to her.
And mannn... soooo much more great memories.

Then came, E35N.

I can't help but scream "WILLIE LUV YOUUUUUUUUUU!!!" whenever I bump into him. He's the first ever E35N mate for me. Suchan ass at times. But he introduced me to great milkshakes which are like...errr.. orgasmic. FOR REAL.As he calls them, "Shiok shakes!"

Great class... where I met my lovely Dabus. I still don't get why we're "Dabus". We have a common "Dabu language" too... only that I don't speak it. I still don't understand how they understood what each other's yakking about.

And of course,of course,of course... there's PC0107. Where I met my first ever poly mates and where I met Han, too. It was so difficult to say goodbye initially, but yeah, still a few of us who still lookout for each other occasionally.

MIKE TEE!

Wo xiang ni arhhhhhhh.

I'm blessed, can you tell?

Welcome To The Black Parade x My Chemical Romance

I just realised that I have an overwhelming feeling of fondness towards Linda, Lala & Zann.
HAH.
Like, the break get together today was so... heart warming.
The huge neck hugs from Zann... till she started waving me about in her arms.
Lala's teasings, laughter and nonsenses.
Linda being herself... which is ever so entertaining and embarrassing.

And this maknenek Linda... can be so sweet when you need someone to sweeten up your day.
I bet she doesn't even realise it!
Biarchhhhh.
Hehs.

When I told her what I've been considering telling him for the past few days, she freaked out awhile before her crap-mode kicked in.
She cracked me up by saying, "Don't you dare spoil our future!"
"Our" being herself and Mr yodavechow.
She's silly like that.
And the little makan and window shopping session after school with her & her friends made my day.
Even though its something so impromptu and simple, they rescued me from getting zonked out, waiting.


Mango off-shoulders! Esprit button downs! Zara pants! Do. Perks. tees!!
The big bad closet monster has chased all my old clothes out to make room for the new.

Dian & her get paid on the 5th.
And I get paid on the 6th.
And we can go shopping on the 7th.
Cos its a Saturday.

*does a jig*

I'm seriously considering going to Chiang Rai this coming December.
For 2 weeks.
Chiang Rai = Thailand = Shopper's Haven


















Bumped into Lionel...the one from STA.
And when he saw me, he grinned and said, "Hello, Benghan's girlfriend!!!"

And for the first time ever, I felt my heart ache hearing someone call me that.

Doing Too Much x Paula Deanda

E24A.
Taking off Thursday.
With like, 7 malay girls, including myself.
Oh mannn.
Too many malay girls ain't good.
Trust me on this.

One of the facilitators mailed us.
Tek Ming.
To "welcome" us into his class.
Right on.

Finally got myself my wide belt.
Ooooh. Loves.

Pay day's due in 2 days.
Ooooh!!! Manymany loves!!!

Fasting commencing on Sunday... 24th September.
Hari Raya commencing a month after that... 24th October.
And I FINALLYFINALLYFINALLY turn legal 2 days after... 26th October.

The Mother asked what I wanted from her and the Father.
Where do I start, Mother?

too many wants lar.

Yeeehaaawww.


OH YES.
Some random Chinese dude saw Mary-Kate & Ashley somewhereeee near Plaza Singapura.
Oh mannnnn.


THE HORROR.

Wild Wild Wet, here we come!!!

Face Down x The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus

In the diary he gave, he jotted, "Whatever's going in here gonna be happy shaits only..."

And I tried, I swore I did.

I don't know where I went wrong.

I don't know how to save it.

I'm giving up now.

Giving up on believing there's happy shaits.

Giving up on believing that someday, somehow things will go back to how it used to be.

Giving up on hoping that reassurance will come knocking on my door once more.

Giving up on trying to assure myself that I'm still his.

I'm just not measured up for this anymore, I suppose.

Apologies aren't enough.

I don't know how to make it up to you.

I don't even feel the distance.

Like, "we" don't exist anymore.

I know you hate it when I'm emo, but yea, you don't have to deal with me.

I don't know how to move or where to go from here.

We can all pretend that this entry doesn't exist at all.

Thank you.

Good night, world.

Just a week ago, you were my baby.

But now I don't even know you at all.

I don't know you at all.

Well,I wish that you would just call me right now.

So that, I can get through to you somehow.

But I guess its safe to say... safe to say.

That today...

I'm officially missin' you.